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7.

I could feel my heartbeat in my throat. I kept my eyes facing forward but Seonghwa was yet to move from my ear.

I remained silent.

I just couldn't speak, all words I wanted to say would not leave my mouth.

I heard him chuckle humourlessly as he moved my hair behind my ear, revealing the bruises he created earlier that day. His finger traced over the colourful mark which sent a shiver down my spine.

"Answer me Lilah" he growled.

"I just wanted to see if my parents gave a shit about me okay?" I spat back.

I didn't mean to come across so aggressive but it seemed like all the anger from before had been reborn.

Seonghwa licked his bottom lip as he moved away from the side of my face. He slowly walked around the sofa and took a seat next to me.

I glared at him, pain riddling in my eyes.

"They don't by the way, they just think I'm out fucking Mingi" I grumbled whilst folding my arms over my chest.

My comment seemed to effect him, but he still had that stupid sadistic smile glued to his lips.

His hand landed on my thigh and began caressing the fabric with his thumb.

"Don't pull that shit again, I really don't want to put a bullet in such a pretty girl"

I swallowed nervously as I watched him lean in closer, his lips so close to mine. I could feel my heart racing drastically which Seonghwa definitely noticed.

Without warning he roughly engaged his lips with mine. I sat in shock for a second and for some dumb reason I kissed him back with just as much force.

This isn't right, what am I doing?!

Maybe I was full of fear, maybe I thought that if I didn't kiss him back he would actually kill me. After all nobody says no to a mafia leader.

Seonghwa pulled me closer, running his hand through my hair before grabbing a clump of it. It didn't hurt like earlier, he was being more gentle.

Leaving my lips, he began working his way to my neck. I whimpered slightly as he began to kiss over the bruises, he didn't care though I actually felt him smile against my skin.

My head and body was telling me different things, I didn't like him this way! Especially after earlier but my body almost ached for him.

I felt him stop kissing my neck and climb on top of me. My face beamed a bright crimson colour as I watched him analyse my body. He bit his bottom lip and let his hands roam free.

Grabbing the hem of my shirt, he violently pulled it over my head and began to kiss my chest. I couldn't help it but I let a gentle moan escape my mouth and instantly felt embarrassed.

I really shouldn't be enjoying this.

He chuckled against my skin as he made his way back up to my lips. Our body's pressed together and I could tell this was definitely having an effect on him. Locking lips once more, he chewed at my bottom lip asking for entry to which I did.

My hands left my sides and landed on the sides of his face as our kiss became more passionate. Every now again I would hear him pant or grunt which clearly meant he was enjoying himself.

Was I really about to have sex with him?

~

Seonghwa stood from the sofa, buttoning his jeans back up. He looked over at my glowing cheeks and proceeded to laugh.

I couldn't make eye contact with him, my head was a mess what the fuck had just happened?

I threw my oversized T-shirt back over my head and began to flatten my messy hair. Seonghwa took a seat back next to me and took my cheek in his hand, forcing me to look at him.

"We should do that more often" he smirked, planting a kiss onto my lips.

I was a wreck, how could this boy go from threatening to kill me to wanting to sleep with me in a click of his fingers? Unless he was trying to put a claim over my head.

I pursed my lips together, not knowing how to respond.

I was luckily saved by the sound of the front door swinging wide open with a clearly distressed Yunho running through.

"Get the medic room ready, Wooyoung's been shot" He yelled through the house.

My heart dropped.

Seonghwa rushed out of the living room and headed straight for upstairs, I didn't know what to do in this situation and began to panic. Making my way to the front door, I saw the rest of the boys hurry out of the car. Wooyoung was being carried by Mingi and Hongjoong whilst Jongho and San made a run for the door.

"Where's Seonghwa?!" San yelled in my face.

I watched his eyes travel down to my bare legs before reconnecting them back with mine.

"He's upstairs getting the room ready, Can I help with anything?"

San shook his head and began to run up the stairs.

"Go find Yunho, he was there when it happened"

I did as I was told and started to search the ground floor of the house to find the tall male. Entering the kitchen, I noticed the back door was open slightly and began to investigate.

Yunho sat crossed legged in the middle of the garden, his head in his hands.

"Hey.." I croaked, sitting opposite him.

He looked up from his hands, his dark eyes was surrounded by the whites being bloodshot and his face was puffy.

"How is he?" Yunho spoke as he wiped his eyes.

I shot him a small smile, placing a hand on his broad shoulder.

"He's upstairs, I'm sure he'll be fine. What happened Yunho?"

Silence filled the air for a couple of seconds whilst Yunho collected himself. He stretched his legs out and pushed his hair back.

"San restrained Gunhak, He wasn't cooperating and we thought that it was only him in the house and that the others we're hiding, they knew we was coming"

He took another deep breath as he tried to put the timeline together.

"I went back outside and stood with Wooyoung at the van, thinking you know San had the situation with Gunhak under control. The next part is really blurry" Yunho mumbled, scratching the back of his head.

"I have no idea where the gunshots came from, but two of our windows got taken out and then Wooyoung was on the floor" I watched Yunho swallow nervously as the moments played back in his head.

"At that point, I just called for the boys to come back and go. I didn't even know if he was breathing but we could of lost more men if we didn't leave then"

I nodded my head, listening to his words carefully. Yunho was showing a softer side which I thought I was never going to get from a cold blooded killer like himself.

I pulled him in for a hug and felt his grip tighten around me.

"It'll be okay, He'll be okay. You did the right thing" I said, standing from the grass. I offered him my hand and he took it, using me as support to get up.

"Go get changed and get some coffee" I told him as I watched him walk back into the house.

I lingered outside for a little longer. The moon was so bright, lighting the entire garden up. Wrapping my arms around myself I tried to think about tonight. Not just with Seonghwa but with everything. It was a dangerous game I was playing, but for once my life wasn't dull. I actually liked the dangers that came with my new life.