She make the hints that she's not okay.. that she needs a hug but no one ever seems to get it. So she's starting to give up, to make sure her fake smile does not faulter so people think she's truly happy. Because what does a girl like her even matter? Her best friends can't even see she's dying inside. Neither can her family or boyfriend. She only needs someone to talk to and no one is there. Most of the time, all she needs is for someone to hold her tight and tell her everything is going to be okay. No talking, She doesn't do well with expressing how she feels into words and it makes things hard. She just needs to know that someone cares and is willing the be there for her at 3am when she needs to talk and just needs to get things off her mind if she can't sleep. Someone who will stay up with her all night and hold her while she cries. All she needs is someone who won't leave. Because they all say they're going to stay, then they leave. But she's scared to get close. She doesn't want to be hurt again. She fears she'll never be good enough for anybody. This is all because everyone leaves. "Why does this always happen to me?" She wonders to herself as she takes the blade to her skin and tears fall down her cheeks. "They all say I'm better off dead anyways."
