𝐀𝐛𝐫𝐢𝐲𝐨𝐧𝐧𝐚'𝐬 𝐈𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐥𝐮𝐝𝐞 (ON HOLD)

𝐒𝐢𝐞𝐭𝐞

Abriyonna Jackson

"You sure you okay?" Julian asks me for the fourth time today. "Yes, I told you this already."
"I know but damn how can you not be bothered by this whole situation?" He asks me.

"I already knew he wasn't fully committed, he was holding back I'm good can we just leave it alone?" I ask him. "Yeah, Julian you and Jaiden been interrogating her for the longest let it go." She says rolling her eyes.

"Fine, I was just trying to make sure little sis was straight." He says throwing up his hands. "I'm good, I just want some space but it looks like I'm not going to get it so cool." I say putting my headphones in my ear.

Rian walks through the door with Tamia behind him. "Hey everybody, abriyonna right?" She asks me with a smile as she stood in front of me. "Yes?" I ask her.

She extends her hand. "I'm Tamia, his girlfriend." Looking back at him I chuckle. "Alright then, it's really time for me to go." I say getting up from the couch and walking out of the door.

"Wait did I say something?" She asks clueless. Nobody answered her. "I'm sorry, I feel like this is my fault." Kari says catching up with me.

"Why do you feel that way, is it because you guys pressured me to fuck with a dude who y'all claimed loved me? Now that I think about it maybe we were better as bestfriends I can't do this I'm done." I say getting inside of my car and pulling off.

Not knowing where I was going I just continued to drive. So many thoughts were running through my head. Why lead me on when you knew there was somebody else? Why claim you wanna be with me when you knew you had feelings for your possibly babymother? I just didn't understand.

My phone started to ring repeatedly. Looking over it was nobody but Ja'rian, Julian, Jaiden and Kari.

I had enough of them I needed to get away and cope with this, this is why I never used the terms "I love you" because everytime I did I ended up hurt. By motherfuckers who claimed they loved me.

I didn't stop until I was at the cabin my dad had in the middle of nowhere.

Parking the car in the yard I get out and walk towards the cabin. Bending down I grab the key under the mat. Unlocking the door I walk inside and lock the door behind me. "I can't believe this shit!" I say to myself. Once again I'm hurt I wish I could just lock up all my feelings I was so sick and tired of going through shit like this.

"Like how could he hurt me knowing I been through enough pain?" I say to myself looking around.

I take a seat on the couch and decide to just work on some new music. Picking up the pen and paper from the desk I begin to write. "They ask me why I'm the wait I' am tired of being hurt, the more I attempt the care the worst it hurt, you claim yo feeling me then do me bogus, should have not trusted you when I didn't know what you was capable of.... ten missed calls can you just leave me alone...you seem happy with her and I was wanna be left alone maybe you don't get you don't think that your wrong but maybe you can't accept the fact that with me you never belonged...

I sit the paper and pen down and just lay back against the couch. I'm done feeling sorry for myself I constantly put myself in predicaments where I end up hurt I just don't get how he could preach to me about caring about me then do some bogus shit like this and then she was so bold enough to introduce herself to me not knowing who I was to him. I didn't get it but I was done and I needed a break from all negativity.