💛《 I don't know why you can't see it 》💜 A miritama story

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Homosexuality. Definition, being attracted to the same sex or gender as your own.

Of course, when I was 12, 13, I never understood what that was. I understood the concept, but of course I never explored it. The main reason why I never did so was because of people's mixed opinions of it.
"Why are you gay?"
"Aww, I love gay people!"
"I just don't get it,"

Of course, I never judged people for being gay, but I never tried to understand it either.
I always thought that it wasn't my business in stuff like that, homosexuality was only for people who liked romance, or who didn't want to be single. Me? I never focused on things like that. I instead try to focus on school and home relationships, romance is a waste of time in my eyes.

But also, there are so many people who are getting into relationships around me. Not necicarily getting into them, but-
Valentine's day for example, a few kids in my class always received a Valentine's, my best friend Mirio being one of them. It sometimes was annoying because I've always wanted to receive them, mostly for the gift along with it, but they soon began to become more realistic. Like cards, songs, flowers, things that a boring guy like me would never truly appreciate.
In my point of view, I believe it's all useless. If you want to become a hero, why waste your time on such useless gifts and such?

But then again, many pro heroes get in relationships and such, which is fine. I don't control their lives anyways, so I try not to think about it. I just was always curious as to why people are so dependent on a significant other.

Anyways, about the random definition at the beginning. It was brought up to me by Nejire, another close friend of mine.

"Hey Amajiki, are you a homosexual or something?"
Of course, I had no idea where that question even came from. I've never even considered being gay, and of course I didn't know why she asked about his sexuality.

"Uh, I'm not...v-very focused on that, Nejire.." I muttered, my usual stuttery tone remaining. As usual.

Nejire simply giggled, punching my arm playfully,
"Oh come on! You're 18 now, of course you'll be thinking about romance and stuff! And besides, you reject almost every girl that comes in contact with you!"
She pouted,
"Like, knowing you, the only reason is because of your sexual orientation. You, Tamaki Amajiki, are a homosexual!!"

Dammit, Nejire..

"Listen, I'm not worried about that, like I said.. I'm too focused on schoolwork only, alright?" I turned to her, before looking away. Dammit, now one out of two friends of mine will be upset with me, and now I'll only have mirio but-

"I was just joking ,Amajiki!!" She smiled sweetly.
Oh, alright.

"...Sorry, i...got ahead of myself again....-"
My shoulders hunched again, and I was in that ugly posture, ugh.

Nejire smiled a bit more, "its alright! I would become flustered if I were asked about my sexuality too.." she looked down the hallway, almost not engaged in the conversation anymore.
"I'm not waiting for mirio anymore, he's such a slowpoke, and I kinda wanna go home-" she turned to me, patting my head. I didn't really like it when she did that.

"Alright, I'm going to my dorm now, see ya amajiki!!" She said as she waved, and skipped away.

Her conversations were always very blunt or one sided, so I didn't pay any mind to it.
Anyways, I decided to wait for mirio in the meantime. Him being in a different class really messed up our "hanging out" schedule, so I always had to wait for him.

But also, that had me thinking about her question, and sure it was a joke, but..

Am I gay?

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