Goodbye Sweetheart

Missing Puzzle Piece

Who else would I be? A lonely person that's alone in his dorm, scrolling through Instagram at 2am looking for something new to do

Age 19, Satou Kouki, known as Touki
It has been a month since I've been in college, I'm not sure how things would work out but it seems to be going pretty smooth, I have two room mates called John and Elijah. I don't really talk to them unless it's about homework or something.

I've moved from Japan to America to continue studying, since I've never fit into a Japanese cultured
environment, dont worry, my English is good enough, I've been working on it since I was in high school, and I still am.

Enough nonsense, let's get real here.
I've been really curious, well too curious, I've jokingly flirted with someone, well jokingly. I'm gay, yeah, and I'm ASIAN, haha. That's why I really wanted to come to the US to study. Well, we ended up spending our days together, ah lovely Jun. He's adorable, he's cute, he was my world, my galaxy until one day.

My whole world collapsed infront of me. No, we were not BOYFRIENDS
or anything, I never meant to catch any feelings, I wish I never did. But I guess it was too late. I loved him, I really did.

But those words were as sharp as a needle that pierced through my heart, as all our memories shatter infront of my eyes......

It was just as if I hurt him, so badly, but he hurt me more, yet I stayed, I still love him but then

"I loved you but not anymore"

Where have I gone wrong?

I fucked up

I couldn't breathe, suffocating, no, drowning, it felt as if like someone was pulling me from the neck, dragging me into agony

It's like drowning into a sea of darkness where you can't see a single thing

It just gets deeper, deeper and deeper

Fixing things were like trying to solve a puzzle while swimming, and trying to grab the pieces that are pushed away by the strong current of the water. Only pushing me further away from a solution

It's dark in here.

.....

"Touki are you with me?! Touki!"

I was out, the only things I remembered hearing were sirens and a random stranger calling out my name.

......

"Is he awake yet?"
"I don't know.."

I could barely lift a limb, it felt like a giant boulder was crushing me. I opened my eyes slowly, getting a blurry glimpse of two people waiting by the hospital bed for me to get up.

"TOUKI!!!"

They both jumped up as their eyes widened, shocked. I was still unable to identify who they were but I guess they were people that perhaps cared for me?

"Doctor, doctor, he's awake!"

"Really!?"

Now I see three unidentifiable figures staring into my face as I try to mumble.
"Huh?"

"Can you see me?"
"Do you recognise me?"

I was thinking, and thinking...
OH YEAH, John and Elijah, my two roommates, thank god I've remembered.

"Y-Yeah, hey"

"THANK GOD YOU'RE ALIVE!"
"We almost lost you dude, you were in a critical condition for like three fucking weeks!"

Huh, that long? What happened? Did I almost die? I don't really remember how I got here, my memory is, foggy and I can't remember what happened, well I guess it's better if I don't.

"I think I'm okay" I tried my best to grin although my body was in pain, as the pain was staring to become numb

I tilted my head to the side and saw another person walking towards me, but I can't recognise him, he looks extremely familiar but I just can't think of who he was.

"Kouki! Are you alright?!"

Eh? He calls me by my full name? If I'm not mistaken, no one but my family members or my old friends in Japan call me by that.

"What happened to me?"

"It's best that you don't know, we'll explain it to you later, you've been here for 20 days in a coma, I'm sure you will be fine for now"

I nodded in confusion

Now, I seriously am curious about what happened.