Goodbye Sweetheart

Trauma

It has been a few days since I was discharged, I'm back in the dorm. Everything seemed to be arranged in a neat order, not like something that I would do. My roommate Elijah was told to take care of me and monitor me as they said they didn't want things to happen again.

I'm not sure why I need to be supervised 24/7 but, I guess it feels good to have someone pamper you and some company. I'm not allowed to attend classes yet. So I spend most of my time alone when Eli known as Elijah isn't here.

He would cook breakfast, lunch and dinner all just for me. I'm not sure why he's so nice to me but it's probably because of the doctor's order.

.....

Staring at the clock as it goes tick, tick, tick. Huh, are they not back yet? The extra classes end at 5 but right now, it's 10.

I shouldn't be so dependant on them, but the loneliness, it feels depressing, as if I'm empty, or I'm missing something, a certain puzzle piece.

I guess I'm slowly starting to remember. I proceed to lay on the couch as I keep thinking about who, who was the missing puzzle piece?

.... Who was it?

...

"Touki, we're back!"
Ah, the voices of John and Elijah, they're back. It's a quarter past ten

Thank god, they're finally back! I opened the door for them as they walked in.

"We brought someone special here, say hi to Min-Jun"

Huh, someone new? Ah, it's the guy from the hospital who called me by my actual name.

"Ah hey, come in"

It was awkward, very awkward, I felt like as if something was wrong, this person, Min-Jun.. Sounds really familiar, the horrible vibe. I can't do this, my head, it hurts.

"Touki, are you okay?"

I was breathing heavily as I look back. It was Eli, giving me a pat on my shoulder.

"Hey dude, you okay?" John came up to me looking into my face and waving his hand infront of me.

Oh fuck. "Yeah, I'm a-alright, sorry"

"Geez dude, you were staring at the clock for like ten minutes"

What, me?

"Touki, do you wanna have a rest? It's kind of late, maybe you should sleep" Eli, as caring as he was brushed his hand against my back.

I nodded, I'm so confused, maybe I should just stop overthinking everything, I guess I've gone psycho or something.

Eli walked me to the bedroom and sat next to me at the side of the bed.

"Touki, are you okay, answer me honestly. I'm always here to listen"
He had a gentle smile.

He's so nice, I wish I wasn't such a burden but, for no reason, I started to cry. Ah, this hurts, what's going on? My head is all fuzzed up from these nonsensical thoughts. My head falls onto Eli's shoulder as I silently sobbed.

"A-Are you alright?!" Eli was shooked, he pulled me closer to give me a hug as I cried, and cried. Letting it all out. I could feel the warmth of his chest as my face was against it, it felt good.

I still don't understand why I was crying so hardly, but it just felt like something was so wrong, like something went missing.

"It's okay, everything's gonna be alright, I'll always be here for you"
He continues to gently stroke my hair, it was comforting like seriously, it made me feel better.

Sigh, I'm such a crybaby.