Goodbye Sweetheart

Company

I cried in his arms, as I slowly lose consciousness....

......

I guess I ended up asleep, in Eli's arms, it was comfortable and warm, I've never experienced something this comforting. Why did I leave my family to come study overseas again? Oh yeah, because I'm fucking gay. They would never accept who I was.

No, I'm not catching feelings, am I? It's ridiculous. Whatever, I don't even know who he really is, plus I lost most of my memory.

But, does he know I'm gay? Even if he does he's probably not the same

I got out of bed, as usual, he was at the kitchen cooking and John was at couch playing the PS4.

Elijah looked back, smiling as usual. "Ah, Touki, you're up, breakfast is on the table"

"Thanks Eli...."
I took a seat and started eating.

In a while later, Elijah grabbed a plate of freshly cooked, english breakfast for himself and laid it onto the dining table.

"Did you rest well?" He took a seat for himself

"Yeah, thanks to you" I smiled

"M-Me, ah, I didn't really do anything" he nervously grinned as his cheeks tinted red.

"If it weren't here to comfort me, I would've lost it" I grinned back awkwardly.

Somehow we ended up awkwardly gazing in each others eyes. His were pale, light blue like the sky. I really like them.

"Mind if I join?" John was done playing whatever he was playing and places a bowl of instant ramen onto the table.

We both were, well, interrupted?

"John, didn't we talk about this?" Elijah sighed

"Stop telling me that I can't eat what I want, so shut it" John frowned

"Well, atleast tell me to not cook extras for you next time then" Elijah raised his voice in a slightly irritated tone.

Damn, I've never seen Eli mad before.

"You don't have to cook for me, you're not my mom, you gay piece of shit" John walked away from us, getting back onto the couch as if he couldn't give another fuck.

Elijah looked down with teary eyes, pausing for a second trying his best not to sob or shed a tear"I'm just trying to help, okay!?"

I gave Eli a hug as fast as possible

"Don't worry, it's okay, I'm used to it" Eli moved away, wiping the little droplets of tears on his face

Ah, so I guess he's gay too or does John just call him "gay" as an insult?

.....

We spent our breakfast awkwardly eating, Elijah probably lost his appetite as I saw him dump his food into the bin. Those bits of baked beans and scrambled egg. What a waste, but I can't blame him nor do anything about it.

He walked away, into the room, sitting on his bed which was soft looking and pretty comfy. I feel bad for him, I really do, but I'm not sure what to say, I do wanna comfort him but I'm not sure about what to say to him. I sure am horrible at making people feel better but I'll try.

He noticed me as he smiled awkwardly as I sat next to him on the bed.

"Yeah, he's right, I am gay" Elijah said it as if it was a wrong thing, well to other's it might be but to most of the people and me, it isn't.

"There's nothing wrong with being gay!" Should I tell him that I'm gay too to make him feel better? Maybe I should. I don't know why but I feel so nervous to do so, to the point my palms are actually getting sweaty. Oh yeah, now I remember. The tragedy of coming out to my parents..

I placed my arm around his shoulder as he sighed in relief. "Thank you for accepting me Touki, I'm sorry as I made you worried"

Did I do the right thing? Fuck yeah I did. My confidence finally went up, but just a tiny little bit.

"Well Eli, I'm actually-"

Before I got to say anything, John stomped his way into our room with a resting bitch face. I glared at him. He didn't look so pleased with me comforting Elijah.

"Why the fuck're y'all lookin at me like that, am I the bad guy now?!"

Oh god....