A life in poems.

Bye.

This won't be a rhyme
Because honestly I don't have the time..
I wrote this down once and I deleted it because I hated it. I'm done. My thoughts are all over.. I know you. What I said.. it's so funny. I can't keep trying if the feeling isn't mutual. If, when, is or ever was. Not like you read these, not like you understand. I try to word things because I'm not trying to manipulate you like everyone else is in your life. I could never... having this swirling darkness around your head for so long. I can't say I haven't tried. I love.. we all know who. But I can't start everything. I can only open the door. You have to go through it. Of course it's hard. But I can expect this from someone that doesn't know me, and know I am already in a locked away safe.. seeing all the cuts and scares. I say bye because you act like you want me gone. If that's so I'm gone. Never to text, call, see you again. But I will forever know and see what's currently in your head. I'm done posting. Not like anyone gets it. I tried but you will see me as something I can never change. And them as something different. That's all your choice.. I can't tell anyone not even you.. because no one knows this.. again making no sense lol. I say bye this last time... because I know it's not up to me. It's up to everyone else talking about me. And you.