The Thoughts and Memories of one Kara Danvers

Lena Luthor - The Woman That Saved Me (Part 2)

"To be your friend was all I ever wanted; to be your lover was all I ever dreamed."

Like I was saying, I didn't want Lena to know because I wanted to stay just Kara. She loved Kara, so if thats what it took, I'd stay Kara forever. I'd get rid of Supergirl entirely if I had to. Then of course, the worst thing that could possibly have happened, happened. Lex turned up, you all know the story, you all know what happened, its no secret, but in the mists of it all, there was of course a secret, mine. Lex has always been good at seeing what others cant, he was always two steps ahead of everyone else, so even on his death bed, he had a plan to ruin my life. He told Lena my secret, in the worst possible way, his words were, as always, full of hatred and venom. Normally all this hatred wouldn't hit Lena that deeply, but paired with the news of my secret, well that was too much. I definitely don't blame Lena for the way she reacted, it was exactly what I expected. I had betrayed her in one of the worst ways possible. I told her countless times I trusted her, yet didn't trust her with this.

I'm sure you all know what happened to Lena after that, it was all quite public and deliberate. What you don't know, is what happened to me. Supergirl seemed fine, even Kara Danvers went about life as normal. Kara Zor-El, she crumbled again, just as she had done years before, when the person she loved left. When that happened, Lena was my rock, my reason to stay, my reason to fight, the same was still true but this time it had a different meaning. I lost my best friend and reacted the same way I did when I lost my boyfriend. Have you put it together yet? I hadn't, not until a trip to visit my cousin. Lena had moved back to Metropolis, where my cousin lived. You see the thing about superhearing is, you can't really turn it off, you can just learn to focus on certain sounds, calming things. Contrary to popular belief, my cousin and I are not Gods, we are relatively normal people, that experience relatively normal emotions, one of those being panic.

This particular day was hard for me, I had spent the day with my cousin, his wife and his son. I watched a happy family go about their normal day with love in their hearts and hope in their souls, something I had been seriously missing. It was too much and I started to panic, I thought I would never get what he had, that it was just different for me. I tried to calm down like I normally do, I picked out a calming sound within the city and listened. Without realising what I was doing I flew towards the sound. Soon I found myself landing atop a building near by, the moment I set foot on the building an alarm started blaring. Now unable to even move, I fell to my knees a curled into a ball. After what felt like hours, but was in reality only a few minutes the alarm stop, a door swung open and a voice shouted.

"Superman, I thought we agreed you'd stay away from...." As quick as the shouting started it stopped. "Kara, what are you doing here?" The voice softened and I knew who it belonged to. Any guesses anyone? That's right, Lena Luthor! Anyone figured out how this story is going to go yet?

"I....and then....I.....I don't know Miss Luthor I will go." I splutter attempting to stand only to fall back onto the ground.

"Kara, listen to me okay? Breathe, in and out nice and slowly." Lena said sitting down next to my gently rubbing my arm.

This continued for a few minutes before my breathing slowed and I calmed down.

"Now Kara, what are you doing here?" Lena asked once again.

"I'm visiting Clark, I had a panic attack...I followed the calming sound." I admit hesitantly.

"and that lead you here? What were you listening to?" Lena questioned.

"You...well you're heartbeat."

"Kara..."

"I know, I'm sorry, I agreed to leave you alone and never come near you again..."

"Kara, I've missed you...." Lena said quietly.

"I thought you hated me?" I questioned.

"I did, but then Sam talked some sense into me, if been wanted to contact you but after everything I didn't know how, I didn't think I could, but I had hope, that maybe one day our paths would cross again. I know it sounds cheesy and not at all like me, but you taught me that sometimes we just need a little hope." Lena admits.

"A Luthor and A Super, our paths were bound to cross again, though I didn't think it would be like this...I must look like an idiot."

"Oh Kara, you always look like an idiot, but thats one of the things I love most about you." Lena laughed.

"So you love me again?" I joke.

"I never stopped." Lena said with an amount of seriousness that would be scary in any other circumstance.

I'm going to stop the story here, mainly because I'm tired, but also because the story of Lena and I is long and complicated, and definitely worth a third part. I have to admit, I'm rather enjoying writing these personal articles, its a nice change from all the hard hitting news. Maybe I should write a book?

Kara Danvers, CATCO WORLDWIDE MEDIA.