short Lesbian stories

Not anything but something i need to get of my chest

I don't know if she'll see this and I hope she doesn't but I'm going crazy, there's things I wanna speak to her about but I don't want her thinking I'm stupid, this past few weeks or so she's been getting more distant she barely kisses me anymore and if she does it's cus iv pretty much begged her or it's a surprise one she's given me, we barely cuddle anymore like we use to where she use to snuggle into me and I use to hold her while we watched something, she barely ever tells me she loves me anymore and it's always, always me saying it first, I'm tired of saying it first because I'm either ignored or yes she will say it back but it just don't feel like she means it anymore, it's ever since she's been getting these butterflies while kissing me, the last two times this happened to her she broke up with someone or her and someone broke up and I'm scared I'm Loosing her, like terrified because I love her with everything I have, am I not trying enough? Or am I trying to much that it's bothering her, I know she says she loves me and if she didn't she'd leave me but what if she thinks she loves me yet she doesn't and just tolerates me? I don't know how to feel about this, like have I done something to cause her to be like this, it's all running through my head, all I wanna do is go back to how it use to be where I could lean in and kiss her and have us both smiling at the end of the kiss, and it not just be a peck anymore, I don't care about the sex, the sex is just a bonus, but it's everything else that gets to me. What I do know is that I love her and it's scaring me thinking she can leave so easily and there be nothing I can do about it, we'll there it is, everything that's pent up in my head, finally not just in my head but written down. Goodnight x