Esme
I see some awards on Ruel's shelves. "What are those about?" I ask.
Ruel
Esme spotted my awards on my shelves. I hadn't told her about my singing. I don't think I'm ready but I've got to. Then she looks at the Nickelodeon award that sits on my bedside table. Well that pretty much blows it. I have to tell he don't I. "Uhh t-those are my..." shit I'm rethinking it. "Those are my uhh s-singing awards". Why is it that hard?! I hope she doesn't think any different of me. Esme's eyes widen. "What!? You sing?" "Yeah". "How come you haven't told me?!" she doesn't understand. "I dunno...".
Esme looks surprised. "Am I allowed to listen to your music?" "Sure". She emediately pulls out her phone. "Is it on Spotify?" she asks. "Yeah, just type Ruel", why am I doing this.
The first song that comes up is Say. Alright. Calm. Down. Ruel. I take shaky breaths. Maybe I'm overreacting.
At first, Esme's eyes widen. Then she has a huge smile on her face. She gets up and starts swaying along to the music. I smile at her. "You like it?" "Yeah. It's amazing!". I'm so glad she likes my music.
Esme
I usually don't listen to this kind of genre but I will definitely start to. Ruel's song is so amazing. Wow, I can't believe he was hiding this talent from me. His voice is so perfect.
Ruel starts to sing along. Effortlessly, he sing sings beautifully. Once the song ended i looked up at Ruel. " I love it!" I say. "Thanks" Ruel chuckles.
He bit his bottom lip and looked at my lips. I ignore it. I wonder what that was about though. It's probably just nothing.
Ruel
I catch myself looking at Esme's lips. I emediately look away. She's notice. Jeez Ruel.
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Next day
I wake up in the morning feeling poopy, tired, sad, and just emotional. I mean, I am the cry baby in the family after all. I don't know what's going through my mind this morning. When I'm confused, I like to stare outside at the view and think. Think about what's wrong. If that doesn't work I usually go vent to my family.
As I stare outside I think. Am I like this because I can't have the girl I w-want? Woah. Do I/ME have a c-crush on... ESME? PANIC MODE. WOAH. DO I HAVE FEELINGS FOR ESME? I don't know how to feel about that. I guess I'm confused.
After figuring myself out I head into my closet. I choose a blue hoodie with a black bucket hat. I've got to pair it with SOME kind of converse. I grab my One Star Converse x Golf Le Fleur's.
After tieing my shoe laces I head out with my skateboard. I feel like a smoothie so I'll skate to the smoothie place 10 mins away.
