• A Purple Blur • { vincent x reader }

• chapter 7 •

holy shit i haven't updated in years, also i'll be finishing this book soon cuz i'm not very motivated but don't worry there are still a few chapters ahead!
(also i wrote all this like last year on notes so i'm just copying and pasting it so it sounds hella cringy and stupid for me lmao)

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⚠️ trigger warning  ⚠️
(self harm & medication mentioned)

we came home a tired mess, i ended up passing out on the bed with all my clothes on..

vincent's pov

i cover (y/n) body with our duvet, and kiss her cheek.

"thanks love for this wonderful day" i tell her, she just mumbled back. i give a light chuckle and leave the room, turning the lights off and closing the door quietly.

i sit on the couch and put some random tv show on netflix.

i was sitting around for a while contemplating on what to do since i cant sleep. i checked the time, it was 1 AM. i looked around and went to the kitchen. 

i decide to reach for sleeping pills, when i notice my prescribed pills. i took them out of the pantry and looked at them sighing.
i looked at the label and read,

vincent bishop
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mood stabilizer
take two daily

i popped off the lid and took two pills, taking a drink of water that was on the counter. i closed the small container and put it back in the cupboard, gripping the counter as i swallowed the pills.

i walked back to the living room turning off the tv, as i walked to the washroom to wash up before heading to bed.

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i looked in the mirror to see my hair a mess, with bags under my eyes. it was about 2 AM. i still couldn't sleep. i turned on the tap and washed my face with cold water. looking up at the mirror, i see the dark side of me. red eyes and sharp teeth.

"god i'm lossing my sanity !!" i yell-whisper trying not to wake up (y/n).

i close my eyes, taking my hair out of the rat tail, brushing my fingers though my hair.

"these pills aren't working anymore.." i say to myself.

i wash my face again with ice cold water hoping that i would be able to see normal things again. i looked up in the mirror with my fists clenching the rim of the sink.

i was normal again..

i sighed, and took off my shirt, looking at all the cuts on my lower chest.. i slowly touched them, flinching from the pain..

i turned around to head for bed.. when i saw (y/n) in the door way, tears streaming down her face..

i jumped from seeing her unexpectedly.

"h-how long have you been there for?" i ask her..

"n-not long.." she said, looking at my chest with small cuts all over.

"a-a-are you doing t-t-that, to yourself vincent?" (y/n) asked me, worriedly pointing to my chest, as more tears fall down her face..

i didn't say anything, knowing what she would say if i told her.

i sighed.. looking away.. ashamed.. i slowly walked towards her..

just then she embraced me into a hug, crying into my chest..

"o-oh..v-vincent" she said wiping her tears looking up at me..

"it's alright (y/n).." i said.

"b-but it's not vince!!" she said with her arms around me.

"i know.. i'm just so fucked up.." i said feeling hurt that she saw me in this state.

"what, n-no ! vincent, don't say that !" she said, looking up at me.

i sighed, wrapping my arms around her tightly. i looked down at her, wiping her tears away with my thumb, caressing her cheek.

"don't cry my love, everything will be alright" i said reassuringly.

"let's just go to bed, it's 2 AM, we can talk about it in the morning.." i said, letting her go, walking to the staircase as she followed, holding my arm.

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(y/n) pov

i went under the covers as vincent took off his pants, sleeping in his boxers..

he slipped under the purple duvet, pulling me closer to him, as i rested my head on his chest, hearing his heart beat.

he put his arm around my body, as i started to close my eyes..

"i love you (y/n)" vincent said, kissing my cheek.

"i love you too, vincent" i whispered back..

'i was still so horrified that vincent would do those things to himself, even though i know he has been though a lot. i hope in the morning things clear up, and i can help him..' i thought to myself, as i fall asleep..

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vincent's pov

'i should have known that (y/n) would see me. i wonder what she thinks of me.. i hope she still sees the good side of me, even if i'm messed up..' i thought to myself, holding (y/n) close.