liar liar ➳ lashton

two

luke's pov

[edited]

you know those times that all you want is to be alone? well i've been feeling like that a lot lately. it doesn't matter who's with me, i just want them to leave. except, they won't leave. it's to the point where i want to scream at them to leave, to just walk away from me and not to come back. because who really wants to come back? i know i wouldn't. ashton just doesn't seem to get it.

it's like he follows me around like a lost puppy dog. i don't want your damn pity, ashton! just stop! we all know i'm just a lost cause that can't be helped. he keeps telling me that i have a problem. i don't have a fucking problem. if anything, ashton is my problem.

he should just stop trying and give up. i'm not going to get any better. i don't even know what he's trying to tell me. i don't lie. i don't have a reason to lie. i'm not hiding anything, and if i was hiding something, i wouldn't tell anyone in the first place.

i don't get why its a big deal anyways. parents hide plastic eggs on easter and act as the easter bunny and no one yells at them! they're both hiding something and lying to their own children! what the hell?

if ashton wants me to get better, then he should just stop and maybe the problem will go away on it's own. my entire brain is clouded by his demands and sympathetic requests— oh, not to mention his whiny voice telling me i keep lying!

"luke, you have a problem."

"luke, you really need to see someone."

"this isn't healthy, luke."

"have you ever stopped to see how i feel about this, luke?"

"do you even realize you're lying?"

"luke, you've changed so much! what happened to my best friend?"

"what's gotten into you?"

"all you do is lie, luke. you just keep lying."

it's luke this, luke that. apparently i've messed up but why can't he just leave me alone and stop trying. if he was really my best friend, he'd let me go.

why can't he just be like my parents? they don't talk to me. they give me privacy and let me be. it didn't use to be like that though. i don't remember exactly when they started ignoring me, but initially i took it as a bad thing, as them telling me they hate me. but then i realized they knew i needed my space. my mom still leaves me breakfast on the counter and says goodnight to me when she thinks i'm asleep. my dad just steers clears of me in general. i hardly ever see him anymore.

the biggest thing that annoys me, would have to be the few times i'm having a normal conversation with ashton and out of the blue, he says that i'm lying.

like, why does he keep bringing it up? it doesn't help my 'problem'.

i don't understand ashton anymore.

i just wish he'd leave me alone.

[ok so that was chapter two! obviously luke is in denial and doesn't want help even though he needs it. this chapter was shorter just because with luke's its pretty simple but with ashton he goes into detail with whats wrong with luke.

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-lexi ]