We're not compatible ( angst warning!)

Chapter 4 - I love you, but I can't.

    Your P.O.V

 I swallowed my saliva and sob. It's him, it is him! I hug him and started to cry on his arms. He hugged back. I bury my face on his chest sobbing loudly. I felt so sad yet so warm. It's like we're children again.

: " Hey it's ok, I'm here. Cry it all out, then later we can talk."

I remember all the times in my childhood-- no, OUR childhood. I remembered he would say that whenever I start to cry. How I miss this feeling! He wiped my tears away and kissed my forehead very lightly. Over a few minutes, my tears stopped crying. So, we talked, talked about what had happened for the past few years.

: " I'm a villain, as you now know. My quirk is still the same. "

I was shocked. Why would he be a villain instead of a pro hero? Suddenly, a bunch of bad guys entered the room without even giving care. So, these are the friends of Tenko-san...no wonder why he didn't even try to find me before. He...gave up on me?

: " Ah, these are my colleagues. They are what keeps the league of villains moving and pumping. "

Did he introduce them first instead of me? Why do I feel envious? A blonde female with sharp teeth gave a toothy smile at my way. I wanted to introduce myself but got cut off by Tenko himself.

: " This is my childhood friend, (Y/N) (L/N), known as the Bubble hero: Bubble girl."

  Tenko gave me a scary look, it felt forceful, so instead of shouting at them, I waved and forced a smile. I look down, I felt so tired, so exhausted, I wanted to cry and shout. I took his hands and we intertwine both of our hands. He looked at me with caring, soft eyes now. How I love his eyes. He haves deep crimson red eyes that shine brightly when he looks at me.

  Timeskip! At night.

I was still inside the secret hideout of theirs. Am I gonna be saved? Am I gonna be a villain? Or will I be forced to be a villain? I didn't notice someone enter ' my ' room. It was a guy with scars, spiky black hair, and blue beautiful eyes. He was accompanied by a girl. 

   : " Hello! Hand-face said that we gotta keep an eye on you or you would escape! You wouldn't...right? "

    Her aura made me scared. Even as a pro hero I was still scared. Why wouldn't I be? Scars went inside my cage or jail and removed the restraints. I was struggling, trying to remove his hands off of my wrists but he held my wrists firm. 

   : " One wrong move and you'll be dead where you stand. "

I felt so weak just by being in front of them. They're like my parents. I felt so useless. 

   : " Stand up. We'll lead you to Shigaraki. "

   I stood up on fear. My body ached so much! He pulled me, so I had to force myself to walk. Walking just by five steps is like stepping on knives. I was thrown to the cold concrete floor. Then being on the floor, my hair was pulled back by scars. I grit my teeth in pain and held my tears back. In front of me was Tenko. Was he planning to kill me?

   : " Let's get things straight. I want you to join our league. Join us and your life will be better! If you don't join us...well..let's just say..that your body won't be found. "

   I wanted to scream at him. But I couldn't. It's no use. I'm gonna die anyway. He put his arm out.

   : " Well?"

I reached for his hands and let my tears drip down from my chin to the floor.

  : " I will join you. Just don't make me suffer anymore! "

   He nods in approval. Scars let my hair go. I feel my scars screaming in agony and my heart is shattered to pieces. I sat up, not bothering to look up. Then, my lips were smacked by another softly. It was Shigaraki. I tried pushing him away, but he only got annoyed and kissed deeper. I tried to stop him but my body was shouting at me to not move.

  He kept kissing deeper. I didn't kiss back. I felt disgusted. He removed his lips from mines and did a speech.

   : " From now on, (Y/N) (L/N), is now part of the league of villains and will stay by our side no matter what consequences happen to us. "

   Mini timeskip!

I lie down on Shigaraki's bed, he said that he'll be staying with me here. A few minutes later, Tenko was here. I didn't bother looking at him. I felt disgusted. 

   : " Hey. I'm sorry for kissing you without my consent. "

He lies down beside me and tried hugging me, but I refuse. He sighs and just held my hand instead. 

   : " Look. I'm sorry ok? I love you. I didn't want to hurt you. But I had to, Okay? Now let's go to slee- "

   : " THEN IF YOU DIDN'T WANT TO HURT ME, YOU SHOULD'VE PROTESTED WITH THEM! "

     I shouted at him. He just sighed and decided to keep quiet. It was awkward.

   : " Look. I'm sorry. I just hope we can build-up the friendship we had when we were little kids. I miss your smile, your laugh, and your cute voice. I just wish to bring everything back to when we were young. But, seeing the situation between us, can break that friendship we once made. How can I ever be friends with you when I already did mistakes? Or I'm just too stupid to understand you? "

   I looked at him. His words were sincere and he spoke with all honesty. My stomach fluttered the feeling of butterflies inside just by looking at him. I cupped his face. His face was so rough. Yet I didn't feel disgusted at all.

   : " I'm sorry for shouting at you. I just didn't know why you would torture me in front of your 'colleagues'. But when you said all those words. Do you think that? Or are you just fooling me? Leading me into your hands and you can just play with my mind? No, I wouldn't allow that. I can't trust you easily and safely. "

   He sighed and kissed my hand. 

   : " I accept that you wouldn't trust me and forgive me that easily. But when I said I wanted to build-up friendship I once broke? It's a promise that I will keep. I love you and will forever love you till my last breath. "

  I felt hot wet tears drip to my cheeks. Tenko was crying. I cupped both of his cheeks, leaned in, and kissed him. We broke off after 20 seconds or so.

   : " I'm sorry. I love you, but I can't. "