I had a very hard week behind me.
Work was pretty exhausting, I got in a bad fight with my stepfather and just wanted to move out and leave everything behind.
But everything solved by the end of the week. My stepfather and I in fact didnt solve anything what was between us but we aren't ignoring the other anymore, so I guess it's back to okay.
During the fight I said things to my brother I really feel bad about. I said I want to leave and don't come back and he said so heartbroken 'no' that it made me cry harder as I already cried.
I was last weekend by my girlfriend and I noticed how I put an act up. I just didn't want her to worry, but I made her worry more because I did that.
Then I had a pretty chill mental health day, went to get me inked again and after that it was all good. I was motivated, I felt good again and I started to have immense hunger.
Today I was voting, enjoyed the good weather outside and now I am going to bed.
There'll be times I don't know where to go but it'll end.
There'll be times I don't want to be here anymore but it will get better once I made it through it.
I made it once, I can do it a second time, a third, a fourth and so on.
I will be okay someday.
Just keep on trying.
