My Memories

Love Maze

After our little dance party, I settled back down into to so the nurses can perform a check up on me and the boys were escorted back to the house along with my parents. I miss them so much already, but I will be able to see them again soon.

"You seem to be doing alright. You will be released tomorrow afternoon when your parents come back with a change of clothes. Are you happy?" Denise my nurse asked.

"Of course I am! I finally can sleep in my own bed." I respond and do a little happy dance.

"Haha, of course. I'll be back in a few minutes with your dinner. Sit back and relax dear."

Denise exits my room and I unlock my phone as I start to lean back a text pops up on my phone. (B is Bianca and V is Taehyung.)

V: Guess who!

B: Hello V lol 😂

V: How'd u know it was me? 🥺

B: I still have all of ur numbers saved

V: oh... how r u feeling?

B: Much better since I got to be with u guys today

V:oh.. 😕

B: What's wrong?

V: oh uh nothing.. just thinking

B: about us?

V:... Yeah. I don't know if u remember much but.... I still luv u

B: 😳U do? even after all this time?

V: of course, u r my first luv 💜

B: oh taetae 😞

V: it's okay if u don't remember... I gtg

I let my phone fall out of my hands and into my lap. I still love you too. I bring my knees up to my chest and sob quietly. I love you so much Taehyung that it hurts, but you deserve someone better than me. You should've found someone better. I hear my phone start to ring but I don't pick it up.

After I cry for a few more minutes, I wipe my eyes and lay down fully. I grab my phone that was near my hip and see who called. Missed call from Mochi 💙.Oh great, he probably wants to question me now about what's going on between me and Tae. I power my phone off and place it onto the table near my bed. Bianca, you can't let him get away... but I feel like he deserves better... but I love him... ughhh what do I do now???

I turn my head into my pillow and scream into it. Why does my love life have to be so difficult? I pull my face out of the pillow when I head a knock on my door. I quickly wipe my face and sit up straight.

"Come in." I say and Denise enters with a tray of food. We make brief eye contact and she pouts.

"Have you been crying?" She asks as she closes the door and walk over to my bed. Have I been crying?

"No." I respond curtly and reach out for my food tray. I'm starving... but not for food but affection from T- No!!! You can't think about him. He deserves better. I shake my head and look up at Denise.

She places the tray in my hands and I lower it to my lap. I look over everything on the tray. Steak, Mashes potatoes, corn, a glass of water, and chocolate pudding. Yum. I looked up to see Denise giving me an amused face and then shakes her head.

"You can't bury your feelings in food love." She states and checks my vitals.

"I can try." I respond before stuffing my face with mashed potatoes. Ahhh, these taste amazing.

I continue to eat my mashed potatoes until I hear Denise clear her throat. I stop shoving my face and look up.

"It won't work love. No matter what, your feelings won't go away until you deal with them." Denise states and starts to walk away.

I quickly swallow my mashed potatoes and grab a napkin.

" I can't deal with them. Right now my love is lost in a love maze and I keep hitting dead ends. I want to admit my feelings but it's been years! He still loves me and I love him... but he deserves so much better than I can offer him and I-" Denise cuts off my rank by shoving a spoon of corn into my mouth.

"Hey! You just woke up, don't over stress yourself. And by hearing just that, this boy is special. He waited for you for 3 years. Don't make him wait any longer or else you might lose him. Not just his love, but also him as a person. And you are EXACTLY what he needs in life. Stop being so hard on yourself. Eat up and be excited! You get to leave tomorrow!" She pats my head and exits the room.

Well, that was a nice talk. I finish my food and place the tray on the same table that I placed my phone on. Tomorrow is a new day, new expectations... hopefully everything goes well. I lay turn off the lights near my bed and lay down. Only if he was here....