[UNDER EDITING] Forgotten (Uma x fem!reader)

Chapter 8: Mixed Emotions

A/n: This has been edited.

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Your P.O.V

With a heavy sigh, I remove my jacket and take a seat at my desk and put my head into my hands, I start to feel more tears fall down my face and I quickly wipe them away as more follow. I stand up with another sigh and turn towards my mirror, looking at my reflection I can see how devastated I look, 'you don't look devastating you look like a weak little bitch.' 'I think she looks fine, stop being an asshole, she looks like shit if I've ever seen it, she looks weak, useless, unwanted.

"Shut up, shut up!" I punch the mirror, shattering the glass, I continue to punch the wall until my hand becomes numb. I look down at my knuckles to see they are purple and extremely swollen with blood slowly dripping from the cuts of the glass. I lightly touch my knuckles and wince as I feel a shooting pain go through my hand and up my wrist, I definitely broke it. The voices in my head have become quiet again, they usually talk to me when I'm alone or try to comment on something that happens, I tend to ignore them but when I get into my emotions, they do this and I can't control myself.

I think this would be a good time to mention that I have multiple personalities, well they're more like if my emotions had voices and were sentient. They are associated with my thoughts, for every emotion, I have a personality to fit it. With a sigh, I unstrap my corset and see the multiple scars on my torso and sides. I walk towards my closet and grabbing a red button-up and a black blazer.

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I finish getting cleaned up and change, I greet my mother and go to Uma's ship. Seeing everyone running around and preparing for Mal and her 'friends'. I walk onto the ship and see Hook tormenting Ben, I sigh and walk up behind them. "You shouldn't play with your food Hook, didn't your father teach you that at least?" Hairy turns around and smiles at me, mockingly although.

"And you should know your place, didn't your father teach you that?" I draw my gun and point it directly between Hook's eyes. "You know nothing about my father, I'd advise you keep out of my family or you might end up hurt or worse" Hairy smiles and then begins to laugh, "You think you scare me, lass? I've dealt with way scarier opponents-" I pull the trigger on my gun, having it aimed next to his head, I graze his ear and a scream of pain sounds out on the deck of the ship as well as the bang from the old revolver.

"Learn to keep your mouth shut next time or I won't miss" Uma walks out of her private office with a smile on her face but it quickly disappears once she sees Hairy with a bleeding ear, "Hairy what the hell happened, why is your ear bleeding?" Hairy points at the gun that has been put back into the holster on the side of my calf. "Y/n, what did you do?" Uma marches up to me with her finger pointed in my face, I swiftly grab her hand and go into a bow, I kiss the back of her hand. "Calm down sweetheart I didn't hurt him... too much, he needed to learn a lesson and I'd say I taught him pretty well"

Uma sighs with a light blush on her face, I stand up straight and pull her into a hug, one hand on her waist and the other making her look up at me, "Never do what you did again or there will be repercussions, understand?" Uma looks up at me shocked, I softly grab her chin and make her nod. I give her a small smile and pat the top of her head. "Good girl" Uma's cheek flush red slightly, she clears her throat and tries to regain her composure. She's so cute when she's flustered.

I release a sigh and turn to look back at Hook to see a crew member helping him with his ear. I stifle a laugh and cough to cover it, I look behind Hook to see Ben trying to get out of his ropes. I walk up to him and give a cheerful wave, "Hello Benny boy" He starts to struggle again, with a sigh of disappointment and a shake of my head I reach around him and tighten his restraints. I give him a pat on the shoulder and shake my head once again, "We can't have you getting away now can we 'King Ben'?" He gives me a look of sympathy "Why are you doing this Y/n? I can help you, get you off the Isle and get you a good education.." I chuckle lowly and start to break out into a loud laugh.

I wipe away a stray tear from my cheek and let out a couple of loose chuckles, I release a sigh and look at Ben with a straight face, "There's nothing you can do to help me Benny boy" I gently slap his cheek twice and release an amused sigh, "Man, I haven't laughed that hard in a while" I smile at the now distressed 'King', "I-if you release me now I'll ask my father to spare you and Uma's crew, you won't get hurt" I look at him like he's crazy and start to laugh again, "Man you are on a roll today, do you really think you're in any position to threaten me?" I chuckle once more and roughly pat him on the shoulder.

I turn around to see Uma tending to Hook, I roll my eyes and walk up to the two. "Uma darling, he'll be fine I didn't even directly shoot him. It's only a flesh wound" I reach down to touch Uma's shoulder, as soon as my hand makes contact she shrugs me off and turns around. "Don't touch me" Next thing I know my head is forced to the left and a loud smack resounds on the deck. I reach my hand up to touch my cheek and feel the heat radiate off my skin. I feel small tears come to my eyes, I lightly sniffle and chuckle weakly. "I'd never think you'd be so bold Uma" I look down at her and see nothing but pure rage on her face, I look into her eyes and as she sees the tears that slip from my eyes I can see visible regret in her eyes.

"It's fine you know, I deserved that one I guess, sorry I upset you to this point" I look behind Uma to see Hook with a grin on his face, I glare at him and reach for my gun. Wait no I can't, that's what made Uma mad at me in the first place. I release an irritated sigh and start to walk towards Uma's office, I'm stopped midway by a small hand grabbing my wrist. I look over my shoulder to see Uma with an unreadable expression on her face, "we'll talk later... " I pull my hand away and keep walking to her office.

I open the door and slam it closed, I lock the door and turn around to see a full-body mirror. I don't see what I'm meant to see but I see my father, the one person I don't want to see. He's the reason I'm the way I am, why I'm like this. The reflection grins at me and I ball up my fists, my muscles tense and I start to shake from all the pent-up anger. I release a yell and punch the mirror and I don't stop until I know the reflection is gone. I sink to my knees and start to cry, becoming that weak little girl I swore to never be again. I open my eyes and look down at my hands to see red blurring my vision.

I pick up a shard of broken glass and look at myself to see small pools of blood in my eyes. I wipe the tears and look down at my hands to see red again. I frantically wipe my eyes and open them again to see the red is now gone and replaced with a deep blue color. My hands start to shake again but not from anger. From fear, the fear that I'm becoming like my father.

No, please not again.