Dusk and Dawn

8 : Mistakes

After staring at nothing for a while I finally figure it out ; I'm crazy. Loco , my friends.

Instead of getting back in the car and getting the hell out of this place , I decide to smoke a cigarette. The hospital isn't going anywhere and I don't think my mum will either.

Did I just joke about my mum being handicapped? I'm going straight to hell.

I partly wish that I had hit someone so I could at least say I'm sane but then I realise that's a really mean thought and I push it out of my mind.

A breeze makes me shiver and I take a puff. I inhale deep and the smoke comes out between my slightly parted lips after a little while. I take the view in ; considering the hospital is located at a high point , I'm on some sort of mountain , the woods behind me,  as I look at the herd of large trees with yellow autumn leaves. It's quiet now in the morning -around 12 p.m.- and very peaceful without the center's noise and people that cause me agoraphobia.

As I finish my ciggarette , I hear a twig breaking behind me. I don't look back right away ; I wait for a couple of seconds and then sharply turn around.

You have got to be kidding me.

"Are you following me?!" I snap at the wolf , assuming it's Noel.

The gray wolf doesn't respond in any way.

"Why would you follow me?" I ask a bit calmer but still annoyed.

The wolf tilts its head on the right as if it's confused.

"I'm leaving , Noel." I say and make my way to the left side of the car. I turn to the woods and notice that the wolf is closer.

"Go away," I say irritated , "that kiss was a mistake."

He doesn't look hurt at all , in fact it makes me upset. He should have whimpered or something right?"

The gray coated creature turns its back to me and walks away slowly , his back bones pointing out with each step. I notice its tail is black. Not that it matters.

I stare at the animal leaving for a while and suddenly it turns back.

And starts running towards me , its teeth bared and its expression evil. I gasp as the wolf leaps on me and react fast , opening the door and closing it in a second , making the wolf fall on its stomach. I lock the doors and watch it as it gets up looking enraged. I notice its eyes for the first time ; crystal blue.

This isn't Noel.

(A/N : I was gonna end it here but nah)

The gray beast shows me its canines and lets out a ferocious growl , realising it can't get to me. Okay yes , I am partly terrified but the rest of me is confused.

Why would it suddenly run back to kill me?

This is why I don't like werewolves.

I stare at the wolf and it stares back at me ; I see nothing but hatred in its cold blue gaze. I slowly reach for the car keys to start the car and get the hell out of here.

The engine roars to life and the wolf's ears point up , its eyes telling me I confused it. It growls one last time and leaves the side of my car , not looking back.

I waste no time to do the same and on my way to the hospital it settles in that this week has not been very good. I feel exhausted and heartless ; going out with a guy when my mum is in the hospital losing her ability to walk. So insensitive.

I guess I haven't really realised it , when something so shocking and sudden happens it takes a while to sink in. But I have to face it and I have to face my mum and the fact that our lives won't be the same from now on.

I clutch the steering wheel and sigh. This is too much , even for me.

What am I gonna do?