My DIARY

Broken truth

I miss being loved by someone special.  Maybe I'm destined to be lonely 🙁 🥺

Hi it's 2nd October I'm still alone and crying my hearts out. Maybe I will be all right tomorrow but right now I wish there was someone special and I could get some mental support from him. But bad luck risha u r alone.  I know,  how to deal with it.  Just sleep u sleepy head.  But still I miss being in love and all that caring, late night talking about all the useless stuff and useful things. I don't know when or what or how long it will take for me to find my truelove but I'm hoping for the best and praying (sometimes) for my better-half. Where are you?

It's like walking down a dark path with a lot of things but not the most important thing light. so sometime I think I'll be all right but most of the time it's really hard for me to walk pass all my insecurities and uncertainty.

Dip down I know I'm enough and enjoying my life with my family and friends, but at the end of the day I feel lonely and utterly exhausted.  Wishing to find out the comfort and support I long for.

My life is not that tough though. But sometime I feel unbeatable.  I find myself totally broken mentally and starts to doubt my existence. But then there is an angle beside me all the time my ~MA~.

She is everywhere whenever and whatever happens she stays. All my mistakes, misbehaviour and illness never made her doubt me once.  That's why Allah made mothers for our survival in this cruel world.  If it wasn't for her I would have attempted suicide a long time ago.  She brought me to the light and excepted all my darkness.

Sometimes I asked my self do I deserve an angel like her. Her caring, kindness, patience, beauty, truthful and outspoken behaviour is what I feel needed in my self to. I need to 0.05% as marvellous as her.