I can't get over you

You would just drop a bombshell like this

I was sitting still completely mind blown by the visitors I've had today and the events of the past two days. For once I was happy to be alone , to have no one near me but then somebody would have to interrupt that few small tiny minutes I have with no interruptions.
I looked down at my phone that had just made a sound

I looked down and I sighed and looked away
As soon as I saw his name I knew I didn't want to see what was waiting for me
I glanced down at my phone

DEACON : what the hell is this Ray

He text with a photo of a magazine with a picture of me running out of the church

I sighed and threw my phone across the room
I did not want to talk to deacon right now

A week later

A week had went by and I was back to my normal Routine , back to singing , back to highway 65
And I had still not talked to deacon , he text me a few times , phoned but I just ignored him
Teddy took the job of picking and dropping Maddie of at his house

I was sitting in the music room
Singing a song , that was stuck in my head ever since I heard it on the radio
The house was empty , the girls were at school

Man it's been a long day , stuck thinking about it driving on the freeway
Wondering if I really tried everything I could ,not knowing if I should try a little harder
Oh but I'm scared to death , that there may not be another woman like this and I confess that I'm only holding on by a thin thin thread
I'm kicking the Kurb cause you never heard the words that you needed so bad and I'm kicking the dirt cause I never gave you the things that you needed so bad
I'm so sad , sad
( credit to maroon 5 their amazing song sad )

" Well that's a different one " I heard the familiar voice
I didn't even have to turn round to know it was him

" It's not mine , a band called maroon 5
They're not that bad actually " I say

" I don't like being ignored Ray you should know that more than anyone else " he says

" I didn't want a lecture , I didn't want to explain , I didn't want to speak to the man that I dumped to be with another man who I also dumped "

" You know Ray we were best friends a lot longer than when we were together"

" Is that what you think of us deacon just best friends cause I'm pretty sure you think different "

" You left him at the altar "

" Yes I did , I'm a horrible human being
I've already heard it all deacon " I say still not turning to face him

" You won't even look at me " he says

I turn round and face him and I wince when I see the pain filling his eyes
I look at the floor at the wall at the piano anything but the look of pain in his eyes

I feel his hand on my chin before I even knew he was near
He pushing my chin up so that I look in his eyes

" You cannot decide when to talk or not , what we are or not , not without me " he says

I sigh " why deacon why if I treat you like this , if I turn down your proposals, if I ignore you why do you come back why me " I ask
Looking straight in his eyes
Challenging him

" Because your pushing me away , that's not the real you , that's you pushing me away because your scared and I have gave you a hell of a lot of reasons to be scared but I'm not the same man
I have Maddie and Daphne in my life I'm a dad even if Daphne isn't biologically mine , and I have Scarlett depending on me to be a father figure
And I have you and If you let me I would like to be the man you depend on so what you gotta say Ray " he finishes saying