Everything

Part Four

I woke up the next morning to find an empty spot where Jonah had fallen asleep the night before. I sat up, thankful my head was less sore today. I blinked the sleep from my eyes and got out of bed, looking around at some of the photos on the walls. Lots of them were with the boys; but there were lots with just Corbyn and me. I headed downstairs when I heard some conversations coming from the kitchen. Jonah was the first to spot me, coming over from his seat at the table.
Jonah : "Good morning."
He wrapped his arms around me in a hug.
Jonah : "How's your head?"
Y//N : "Better, thank-"
Jonah : "Should I get your meds?"
Y//N : "I mean I g-"
Jonah : "You should eat breakfast, maybe that'll help-"
Y//N : "Jonah! Relax."
He sighed.
Jonah : "Sorry. I'm just trying to help."
I smiled.
Jonah : "Do you... remember anything?"
I looked around to see the other boys had turned to me as well. You could see the hope in Jonah's eyes as he waited for my response. I was only able to whisper;
Y//N : "...no. I'm sorry."
His expression faded.
Jonah : "That's ok, don't be sorry. You're trying."
My eyes started watering when I realized how horrible this must be for them. I had only been thinking about trying to help myself, when in reality, these boys loved me the most.
Y//N : "What if... what if I don't remember?"
He shook his head frantically, pulling me in again.
Jonah : "Don't day that. You will."
Y//N : "How can you be so sure?"
Jonah : "You will, Y//N. You will..."
I couldn't tell if he was reassuring me or himself, but I accepted the hug and leaned into his chest.

I was still on house arrest for at least another week, so the boys and I decided to have a movie night at home. I headed upstairs to change my clothes, finding an oversized hoodie in my closet. I slipped it on over my head and grabbed a blanket before making my way to the couch. Corbyn gave me a squeeze when I settled down next to him. The other boys were still in the kitchen making some snacks. I turned to Corbyn.
Y//N : "Can I ask you something?"
He nodded.
Y//N : "Are we close?"
His expression faltered, and I realized that Jonah wasn't the only one I had to be careful around. He cleared his throat.
Corbyn : "Yeah, we're close. I like to think you're my best friend. Besides the boys, of course."
I smiled.
Y//N : "Really?"
His laugh could light up a room.
Corbyn : "Yeah."
Y//N : "Like how?"
Corbyn : "For starters, we're always together. Every Saturday I take you to the mall, and we go out for ice cream, and every Tuesday we go to the space museum in LA."
As he kept talking, it's like he was getting more excited. He adjusted himself in his seat to face me.
Corbyn : "It's kind of cool, really. We've got this bond over space and stuff. Before you left college, I'd tutor you in math all the time."
Y//N : "Could we go there?"
Corbyn : "Where, the mall?"
I shook my head, and his eyes got bright.
Corbyn : "Oh, the museum! We'll go as soon as you're good enough to, ok?"
Y//N : "Good. Maybe all I need is a normal day to help me remember."
I watched his face fall. I think just for a moment he forgot I wasn't normal. He nodded.
Corbyn : "Maybe so."
Jonah and the other boys came into the living room. He looked me up and down, smiling.
Jonah : "I like your hoodie."
I glanced down at it, confused.
Y//N : "Thanks?"
He sat down next to me.
Jonah : "Where'd you get it?"
I laughed a little.
Y//N : "My closet. Why?"
He went quiet for a second.
Jonah : "No reason. I'm gonna grab the popcorn, ok?"
I nodded as he got up. Daniel sighed.
Daniel : "That's his hoodie. I think he thought you'd gone and stolen it."
Y//N : "Oh."
I looked towards the kitchen, not seeing Jonah anywhere.
Daniel : "He'll be ok, Y//N. He just really loves you, that's all."
I felt my eyes glaze over a bit.
Daniel : "Oh- wait, no- that's not what I meant, I-"
Y//N : "No, it's ok. I'm just... kind of emotional lately."
He smiled a little, and Jonah came back into the room with the popcorn. His eyes were a little red.
Jonah : "So, what are we watching?"
An awkward silence crept over us, but Zach broke it.
Zach : "It's Y//N's choice."
I started searching through Netflix for something to watch, laughing and talking with the boys. As much fun as I was having with them, I just wished things were normal again.