sugar | bjh

ix.

♫playlist ; high school sweethearts - melanie martinez♫

your steps is heavy , just like the last time you left the grand building.

" miss Joohyun...after she was married...she moved to another branch years ago."

married. she's married.that crushes your heart. you don't know why you can hear the glass of your heart shattering to millions pieces.

you wish you could turn back the time. before you left her.

heavy steps accompany by light rains and your unstoppable trickling tears. it felt wrong to be sad that she's living her life with someone else that she love. building a family after...us.

your sweater is close to soak so you decided to stop by your second home. the memories here only led to joohyun not your friends. gosh that felt so wrong.

the korean pancake stall is now a small store. stepping inside , feels like home after inhaling the scents of the fresh cooked pancake.

you look around for someone , the ahjumma. and your heart break at the sight of an altar. with the ahjumma picture, smiling , looking alive.

hot tears slips from your eyes as you slump yourself on the chair by the windows.

you buried your face in your arms. god why did everything have to go wrong? you know that now you look crazy, possibly with swollen red eyes, puffy cheeks and ugly sobbing echoing in the store. it has been god-knows-how-long since you started crying.

"excuse me , are you okay?" you heard a voice , feminine,comfort. you face up and saw a woman, in a red apron. one of the workers?

the woman concerned face , melts into shockness. her eyes lock into yours.

"j-joohyun." that left your mouth. stuttering, scared.

-   - -   -

"so , feeling better?" a mug full of hot tea is pass into your hands. in her other hands is her mug.

sitting across you is her. she's here.

"why are you working here?" you ask, sipping slowly the heavenly tea.

"well, me and ahjumma..after you left-" that breaks you, after you left. how long has it been?

"- me and ahjumma..we got close, i visited her a lot since she's the only one that reminds me of you..a lot.. then... she passed away,i saw it coming though." she tried to look calm but you could see through her, she's breaking.

"i just work here like a hobby..during my free time like today."she adds , sipping her tea too.

you glance at her hands and saw a band-aid around her finger. it looks familiar. bunny with a crown.

"the band-aid." you say admiring it. it looks the exact same like the night. she chuckles as she run a finger on it. "i bought it at the pharmacy, coincidentally it looks like yours." she says. you face up and look at her. still thinking of me?

she looks as beautiful as ever, her hair is now dark brown. her eyes shines but you didn't know why. she looks like an angel like she always do.

but she's married.

"actually, i have things to do." you stand up, you can't be here falling for a married woman. her eyes follows you. her hard gaze , soften.

"you still have my number right?" she asks, her voice is sweet. you did.you always save her number even in your mind. you feel it again, the butterflies. god, you're a married woman for god's sakes.