Tokyo ghoul oneshots

Tsukiyama x suicidal reader

(Not requested by anyone but something I wanted to write)

Warning:mentions of attempted suicide, mentions of cut scars,mentions of abuse(physical and verbal)

You sat in your room with the lights on. It was well past 1 AM. Yet outside your door you could hear your parents yelling about who knows what. You hated the yelling every night. 'A few more years' you thought. 'If I last that long' you didn't want to live to see yourself graduating from high school . Then your parents would act like nothing happened. They'd act like years of abuse,verbal and physical, never happened. A few scars still haven't healed properly.

You checked your phone. Someone was calling you. How were you supposed to answer with all the yelling? You turned some music on through your speaker. Then you answered tsukiyamas call. "Hey tsukiyama! I can't talk long cause I was going to go to sleep in a minute but what's up?"
"Y/n I'm glad you answered. I needed to see if you can come over to my house tomorrow. It's important so I'd be glad if you could"
You thought about it. But you'd have to decline. Tomorrow was an important day for you too. It was the day when two years ago you first attempted to die. It was also the day last year you attempted to die. Tsukiyama didn't know this. And he never would,because tomorrow would be the last attempt. The successful attempt.

"Sorry tsukiyama I cant,I've even got to skip school tomorrow I can't do much because it's an important day" you said cheerfully.
Tsukiyama insisted though. "I understand but it's very important"
You just laughed. "Can't it wait until the next day?"
He sighed. "It can't."

You rolled your eyes. "Sorry tsukiyama,I promise the day after tomorrow I'll come over ok?"

You lied.

The next day came. Your parents left. You ignored tsukiyamas constant calls. That was until you were ready. The chair in the room. The rope tied into the prefect knot. You were going to say goodbye but he texted your first. He saw that you were online. He called you. You ignored it.

He texted you. 'Don't try this,please y/n don't die' your confusion of how he knew what you were doing was cut short by your message to him. 'Goodbye tsukiyama'
You now had a note to write quickly. You wrote it with a quick precision. A note to your parents. So that they would know it was their fault.

Then you got up onto the chair. You put the rope around your neck when you heard a knock on your bedroom door. Then it burst open. A disheveled and out of breath tsukiyama ran into the room. You looked at him with tears in your eyes. "Why are you here? Why...let me go tsukiyama"
Then you saw the look in his eyes. Your friends eyes were those of a ghoul. He noticed your stare and made them normal. "Y/n I wanted to protect you,I love you. So don't die"

You took the rope off. Then you stepped down to stare at him. "Can I see your eyes again?" You asked suddenly. He seemed a bit surprised but his eyes changed. You stared into them for a moment. "You could've killed me all this time,you really should've,Shuu" you let out a sad laugh. "I've already made up my mind that I want to die,could you at least do me the honor of dying by your hand? Or well,your kagune"
Tsukiyama sounded offended. "I would never! My love,I will stop you from dying every time. Every. Single. Time."
You smiled a bit. "That's sweet of you Shuu but will you always be there to be able to stop me?"
He nodded. "Always,I always will. Because you aren't staying in this hellish place. Please come with me. Don't choose to die here. Choose to live with me."

You didn't know what to say. But you nodded silently. "I didn't have a plan for if I lived. I've never had a plan where I live....thank you Shuu. I guess....this will work....and for the record..." you put your hand on the ghouls cheek. "I love you too,I have since I met you but...I thought telling you would be useless...."

He leaned closer and kissed you. The kiss was gentle and pulled you in.