Jenn's POV
Tonight is the night of the concert, Demi and I got back into L.A two nights ago, and I've been staying at her place. Kris and I still haven't talked, but I hope she's coming around soon. It has been strange, to be staying at another girls place, overnight. I really like Demi, but I'm getting anxious. I'm not used to the whole sleeping in bed with a girl all night thing. I feel kind of suffocated already, it also doesn't help that I haven't done any coke in a few days, the withdrawal is kicking in. I need some space before I literally go insane, which sucks because I like Demi, and I want things to work, its just too soon, too fast. I got out of bed, dug through my suitcase, and got out the bag of coke I bought, when I was back home. I bought a lot more than I normally do, because this stuff is stronger and better than what I normally get.
After taking a shower and getting ready, I went downstairs, to the smell of breakfast and coffee already made. I took a deep breath and walked into the kitchen, where I saw Demi standing at the counter with a cup of coffee in one hand, and her phone in the other. She's bent over the counter with her ass sticking out a little, I smirked, as I walk over to her, and wrap my arms around her, "Morning sexy." I husk in her ear. She shivers and smiles at me.
"Morning, you, how'd you sleep?" Demi asks me. I kiss her on the shoulder and make myself a cup of coffee.
"Good, I'm going out for a drive for an hour or so, I just need to get some fresh air." I tell Demi, trying to stay calm and look okay. I don't want to give off that I've been feeling uncomfortable. She is a great girl, and I do like her, I just need to relax and take this slow, before I do something to screw it up. I definitely don't want to hurt her, but this is already too much too fast.
Demi turns around a looks at me with an eyebrow raised, "Are you okay?" She asks with concern in her voice. I grip the coffee cup, willing my hands to stop shaking, because the withdrawal is getting to me.
I try to give Demi the best reassuring smile I can, "Yea everything is fine, I just like to take my car out and drive for an hour or so. Be alone with my thoughts." I tell her. Demi searches my eyes, and sighs.
"Okay then, have fun." Demi says and turns around to go back on her phone. I close my eyes and let out a silent breath. I finish up the coffee, and give her a kiss on the cheek.
I grab my keys, "I'll be back soon." I tell Demi, and head out the door. I get in my car, and drive a few blocks away from her place before I park. I get out the small bag of coke that I separated, and do a few key bumps to calm me down. I close my eyes and wait till it hits me. When it finally does, I relax and drive to the beach, but not before I stop and get a pack of cigarettes first.
Once I arrive at the beach, I walk to my special place, where I sit down, and light up a cigarette. I sit here and think about everything that's happened in the last few weeks. I've gone three and a half weeks with no sex, which is making me irritable. Then, Demi shows up a week ago to Candyce's, which was amazing, don't get me wrong, I'm glad she told me how she felt, because I feel the same about her. Its just hard, strange, and different for me, I'm not used to being with one girl, or in a relationship period. No, we aren't in a relationship yet, I need to take this slow or I'll push Demi away. My best friend is right though, if I don't at least try, I know I'll take it out on myself, because I do like Demi.
I sigh, my head is all fucked up. I take out the coke and do a few more bumps. At least tonight, I'll be out with Jojo and Kris at the concert and I will have some space from Demi. I'm hoping that tonight, I can apologize to Kristen face to face, and we can be okay again. I miss my best friends, and moving back in with them might help with this stress. Living with Demi is only going to cause me to retreat and pull away. I pull out my phone to see its 11:43 am, I send a text to Jojo, 'Hey love, what time are we supposed to be at the concert tonight?' I ask.
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The Heart Wants, What The Heart Wants
FanficJenn, Jordan, and Kristen, are three best friends, Who live in an apartment together, outside of L.A. They go through their journey together. This isn't a typical story of 3 best friends who have a great life together. No its far from that. Jenn...