Left Behind (An August Alsina Story)

First Memories

2005 [Houston,Tx]

August and his family had only been in Houston for approximately 7 months and we'd already shared everything there is to know about each other.

August and I met at the end of 8th grade and instantly clicked. We claim not to have romantic feelings for each other but I know I feel something ... As for him I really don't know.

Since we'd grown so close we had met each others family and stayed over at each others house and all of that. Sounds kind of too much for 14 year olds, huh? Well our parents trust us unlike other little fast teens.

August and I got into our first fight because he decided to talk about me with his friends and I really didn't like what was said so I'd locked him out the house and when he finally begged that I let him in, I zoned out away from him which meant I wouldn't help him with his homework and you know how slow he is.

"August I'm gone hurt you if you don't get off of me!" I yelled squirming around.

"Oh so now you want to talk to me." He replied while he still tickled me.

"If you stooooop, I'll talk!" I barely got out as my laughter became uncontrollable.

"Promise?" He looked up at me.

I couldn't even talk anymore so I just nodded still bursting with laughter as tears rolled down my face. I hated and loved this about him.

He knew too much about me. He knows how to piss me off, then he'll come right back around and make me smile and laugh with him. I hate it.

I watched as August slowly removed himself from hovering over my body and sat next to me on my living room couch. August reached over to get the remote and mute the tv as Spongebob babbled about the "power of bubbles".

"So what did they say?" He finally asked, breaking the silence.

"You mean what did y'all say? Well y'all said I was just a hoe that liked playing niggas feelings and alot more you already know you said." I replied trying to calm my attitude.

"And I was wrong I'm sorry," he said not sounding very apologetic, "and as a bestfriend I shoulda said some and stepped up, but you know how childish they are. They gon be round school talk bout I'm whipped."

"But if you got love for me like you say you do you'd defend me. But ya know August, your accent is what makes me forgive you but keep fucking with me and I'm gone stop messing with you and you know you don't want that." I threatened.

"Okay, Alex."

"Nigga my name us Alexis. Ok?" I said because he calls me that when he wants some that bad.

"Okay Wugga."

"What do you want Pooka?" I said snickering.

"You know I hate it when you call me that but baby will you help me with my algebra homework?" He whined.

Now all of us know when August says baby, we just melt and if you don't your hormones aren't functioning correctly.

We went to the table and a few minutes into helping him my mom came home carrying my sleeping little brother at her hips. August went over and grabbed him from her and jogged upstairs and laid Jordan in bed. He came back down and we finished his homework.

"OOH! Now its my turn to pick what movie we watch." I said scanning through our dvd's.

"Come on and don't pick no gay movie."

I went over to the tv and changed the input and put in Sister Act 2.

"Alexis we watch this every week." August whined.

"Problem?"

August didn't answer, he just sat there plopped down into the couch. Little did he know my movie just sparked a part of him he didn't even know he had in himself.

As time went on August began to sing the songs along with Lauryn Hill. We never knew he had so much talent. I mean he was a little rusty but still I encouraged him to start posting videos on youtube and within days, he had all the hoes at school. You know what them singing boys can do to you!

[2008] - Houston,Tx
Now that August and I were older and more mature we realized those feelings we had were feelings of love. We became a couple on July 9 and had been happy ever since. We'd started school 2 weeks ago and planned to spend this weekend together since school gave us a little less time together.

Saturday

August had walked to my house and came in with a bag to stay over for the weekend. My mom was now home less since her since my father cut things off, leaving me to care for Jordan.

I started to care less about everything but I continuously tried to use that as a motivation to become successful and attend LSU.

Jordan was now 9 so I could trust him to go to his friends house and be back by time the street lights went off. You know what that means? We had the house to ourself. It was getting dark and Jordan came home early so he'd practically stolen August from me. August loved Jordan possibly more than me. Wait naah let me stop lying. Jordan was so worn out he went and laid out on the couch and fell asleep.

August snuck into my room and smacked my ass mighty hard!

"Do you really want yo ass whooped right now?" I growled at him.

"No, but yo kitty is meowing my name" August growled back.

I couldn't help but let out a giggle.

"Not today baby." I moaned as August started kissing on my neck.

"But it's been a while since I beat it upppp." he raised up to say.

"Ugh August! Just 1 round."

1 round turned to 2, 2 turned to 3 and so on. We'd cuddled up and talked about our future until at least 6 am.

I woke up when I felt August stop holding me and sitting up. By how it looked outside it was the afternoon, I think. August was on the phone with his cousin, Marcus.

"What?" I kept hearing August repeat. I was becoming confused until I saw tears drip off August cheeks.

"You telling me a nigga killed my brother?"

"Naah nigga stop playing." He kept repeating.

I was in complete shock and disbelief but August seemed not accept the fact someone had just shot Mel. August threw his phone at the wall screaming "FUUUUUCK!"

I was terrified to even help him.

"August calm down." I kept trying to repeat in a soft tone.

He hadn't responded and wouldn't respond.

"Mel, bruh we shouldn't have chose that path in life." August cried to himself.

"I knew we should've stopped but now you're gone. Leaving me all alone. You can't be gone, now who gone watch the girls? I won't be able to live now. Not without you."

August went on and on bringing me to tears.

"August stop trying to blame yourself! Just think of this as a motivation to get out of this and do something with yourself." I said catching his attention.

"That doesn't make me feel any better but it eases the pain. Baby you know I loved him right? He knows that too right? I mean if I didn't I wouldn't have got this tattoo of this crazy shit "Self-made," he said still quite paranoid.

"Funny thing police didn't even try to catch nobody. They just know my brother was a black dope dealing boy. Doing what he had to do for his family. I don't want to live without my brother."

"And I don't want to see you this hurt. Baby just use this for bettering yourself." I whispered through my cries. You would've thought this brought me and him closer together but that was the last day August was really himself.

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Quite a long chapter huh? Well I hope you didn't get bored. Alexis, is showed at the top! Um there is this thing my favorite writer did, she would describe the chapter using a song and so I will be doing that (@wheadee) ! Please leave feedback, negative and all! This is my very first time even trying to write so please spread the word! ❤️ Asia