Don't know where to begin because things were never supposed to end
You brought me comfort no one could ever understand
You were more than a friend, you was really fam
I'm still trynna comprehend
But I don't think I'll ever understand
Why you're not here
I done shed a lot of tears
Death always on my mind but it's nothing I fear
I wish you would've called me
Before you made the final call on yourself
I would've told you how much you're worth and not to kill yourself
Girl you know I love you
I would've came to your rescue
I still see you in my dreams and hear your voice in my head
You so far gone and that's something I continue to dread
I could've done more
But I understand I did all I can
I'll carry your legacy as I continue to grow and be a man
I can't question God
But why her and not me?
I saw you everyday
Was with you everyday
When you left I wanted to go with you
I hate growing close to people because I know I love hard
I wanted the best for you
You would tell me things, show me signs
I wouldn't speak up
That's why this hurts so much more
I've been feeling like it's my fault
This is a mess I could never clean up
I'm not God
But you are forever with me
Rest easy
I love you
