Uhhh quarantine is going just fine.
I've been staying up all night and gaining fucking weight but it's alright. If you trynna do an all nighter let me know. I barley sleep a good 5-7 hours I'll be fine.
Last night I was reminiscing about my brother and godfather. I miss them mane. Ever since they left I've just isolated myself away from the world. Shit is sad tho so I've been thinking about writing a letter and visiting them so I can have the completion of my grievanc.
I been basically mediating my friends through their puppy love stage. At times it gets tiring about hearing them procrastinate when you can just put your pride to the side and just tell her. And you know when you can tell a relationship isn't gonna last?...well that's how I'm feeling right about now. This is why I can't do relationships I be on some different shit.
I got a ps4. Shit is cool or whatever. I just be playing gta 5,ufc, 2k. Doing them mission gave me a mf migraine.
A few days ago I got a call from my bestfriend. I was shook because I haven't talked to him ina fat minute. I'm glad tho because ever since he left shit got bad. He had to what he had to do💯. At the end of the day E D's what E D's. I'm just glad we can still bounce back to our ways. He happy I'm happy. I finally got the person who doesn't judge but yet understand me back. Life isn't great but it's ight.
My friend was trying to read me the Bible this morning over the phone and it didn't feel right at all. Just hearing her say something about the devil filled me up with fear. I've heard so many horrifying stories from my grandma. I've given it a chance to read the Bible but I'm still not comfortable. I just hope I don't wait too late and I'm not able to repent.
I just been overly stressing man. I'm always trynna help somebody but nobody trynna help me. I do it because it feels right. If I can guide a damaged person to healization then ima do it. But I still battle shot on my own everyday. I'm not even batting it nomore I'm just living with the pain and trauma. I'm living with the acceptance of it.
Well that's it for today...
Ree out💞
