nothing. last. forever

chapter8 changes

i couldnt believe it jacop was my first kiss my first kiss as i thought about outside of the school not only that but i betrayed justin i knew i had to tell him about the kiss but wouldnt know how . i decided to go Back inSide since i pretty much left jacop standing there for about 15 min as i apporch him he said ( ness are you ok look if its about the kiss we can just forget and pretend it never happen ( nessi ) thats the thing jacop we cant pretend it never happen were not little children any moré jacop we have to Face reality and confort eachother about are felling we have for eachother other ( jacop) ness tell me the truth and no líes do you have fellings for me or Is it just a silly crush ( nessi ) come lets go outside ( as i was walking outside i felt a rush inside of me like if i was scared but at the same time nervous ( jacop) so ness what do you feel ( nessi ) i dont even know where to exlpain jacop i i love you ,i cant live with nor with out you as he giggle do to the fact i said i couldnt live with him since he can be annoying as hell some time but i still want to be around him all the time i love how we can talk about any thing to eachother here and then i love how ur so protective of me your my every thing as he couldnt resist but step closer to give me another kiss but i backed away ( nessi ) but jacop i also love justin and i cant do this to him and you know that . i love you so much but i should only love you as a friend and that how it should be and this Is why we shouldnt be greater than friend not only , that it whould effect other but it Will ruin are friendship ( jacop ) Is that true ness or are you scared to fall in love with me ( i looked Back to jacop it was killing me to hold in my fellings about him ( nessi ) please dont do this to me jacop ( jacop ) answer me ness ( nessi ) fine im scared im scared that i Will fall in love with you im scared justin would hate me for that and im scared that i fall in love with you and proberly lose you because i woulnt know how to live a seconds of my life knowing your hurt , not near me or gone forever . (those word i herd coming out from renesmee had me speechless and thinking so i just decided to put my hands on her líp so she could stop talking and Hug her i just answer Back fine ( it was Now 11:00 and me and jake were still hugging each other ( nessi ) its late i think we should head home ( jacop) yea sure. as he was driving me home all i could think about was how justin was going to react to this Will he ever forgive me i just toke a deep breath and looked out the Window who knew this day would ever happen.😔😍