Fool For You (gxg) | Completed ✔️

29. Unhappy Birthday

Sam's Pov (next day)

I really fucked up this time. Avery is so hurt and so disappointed in me. She hasn't talked to me much and it crushes my heart further. I know that I have to fix this, her birthday is tomorrow and she doesn't need to be sad about it. I just fucking ruined everything. 

I only lied once. The days before that well I lied too but it was for her birthday. Sky, Charlie, and I went to get tickets for this band Avery likes who will be playing a month from now and the next day we went to see a few places to rent at for this weekend, like a small getaway trip I have been saving up for. So I had to lie and tell her I was with Sky. But yesterday, I just guess I just wanted to spend time with all of them, Jude and his girlfriend are back and it was the first time we were all hanging out and I thought Avery would be busy, and yeah I didn't text her and that was my fault. I should have told her that I was gonna be at Charlie's and he was having a small party thing. 

Avery thought I had been ignoring her and not thinking about how she was feeling honestly it was the opposite. I just, I guess I'm dumb when it comes to the emotion department. It's hard to read Avery and I just wished she'd tell me how she feels. Instead, she goes quiet or says that everything is okay. She doesn't want me to push her and I haven't. But then sometimes, I think I have to because not doing so makes it seem like I don't care which is the furthest from the truth. What she said that day about me not saying anything and pulling away isn't right, I do ask, maybe just not enough. We've never talked about it either.

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Avery's Pov(same day)

I got home late as I was so head on to ignoring Sam. She texted me a few times on dinner all I said back was that I will be home late. Meaning, I didn't want to eat dinner at home. A part of me was ready to forgive her, the wolf, mate part but the human part is hurt and betrayed and a little embarrassed that this had to unfold in front of Jake.

The worst part is that tomorrow is my birthday. I guess it's not the first time I was gonna be sad but it sucks, I thought it was gonna be great, I was gonna be 21. 

I wonder if I was a little harsh with Sam earlier, I never let her explain and chased her out of my office with tears down her face. Maybe I was. 

I entered our apartment as it was passed 1 am knowing Sam would be asleep. I saw the little note she left on the countertop with a smiley donut, making my heart clench a little. I took it and read it as I sat on the stool.

My Beautiful Avery,

I'm so sorry babe, I didn't mean to make you mad or upset you. I didn't tell you about yesterday because I guess I didn't want to disappoint you if I said that there was gonna be a party. I know you don't like it when I go for things like this. I really didn't want to yesterday, it's just that people came down, and all of them were there from school and they were all going back soon so I stayed. I admit that it was my fault, I didn't text you after that, nor did I say if I was coming home, I shouldn't have done that. I'm sorry, love, I truly am. 

I do care about you Avery, I think about you all the time and how I could be the perfect mate for you and maybe in between perfecting myself I forget that you're here, and you need me and I wasn't here for you. I apologize, it was so selfish of me to do so. God, I'm sorry, now thinking back yeah I was really stupid. But babe, it was never my intention.

I promise I'll change, I want to be better for you. You've done so much for me, you practically saved my life more times than I can count, you're my everything, never ever less. I love you, and I'm so sorry again. I suck as a mate, don't I?

It might be the next day when you read this and I know you probably don't want to look at me right now, so uhm, Happy Birthday Avery. I love you, you're a dream I don't deserve and I'm so sorry for lying to you.