Where Will I Go Without You?

Poem #8

"When he died, all things soft, beautiful and bright would be buried with him." - Madeline Miller

Every time I feel like my life is getting back to normal,
My heart skips a beat, and I'm feeling guilty for feeling okay.
I know that you would want me to be okay, and be happy for you,
And I know that all of these things will happen one day.

As of right now, I see myself with no one in this world, but you.
You always said you wish we had met sooner in life,
And I know I said, "me too," most of the time.
But even in out darkest days, right then and there, everything still felt right.

When will these feelings go away, now that I can never say goodbye?
Why would God take you from me so soon, anyways?
I can't see my future anymore, because you're not going to be in it.
It's like I'm a robot resetting my original settings, but I'm in a dirty, drawn out haze.

I don't ever want to move on, I wanted you to be my forever.
I know that we had great memories, and that I will cherish always.
I just thought that we had more, more kisses, hugs...
More laughs, more "I love you's," but I will never again, have those days.

I love you, my dear. And you still own my heart.
You will always be my forever, until my last breath.
I know that this sounds a little dramatic,
But I died inside that night, as soon as I heard of your death...