Still Holding On

Chapter 2

Wow! 11 years! This is soooo crazy to me. Like I am 33 years old and I just got married four years ago. I live in Orlando with my husband who plays basketball out here. I miss living near my sister but I'm not too far so that's good.

So I have three kids and they're all girls. Madison is my oldest standing at 14 years old. Me and her father are beating these boys off with a stick. She is a sophomore is high school and plays on the girls basketball team.

Next is my Madelynn. She is 8 years old. That girl is my lil diva. I already know she isn't going to play any sports. She think she too cute to even watch tennis on TV.

My last one is Malone. That is my lil princess standing at 5 years old. She likes to run and she's pretty fast. She is already on a track team so that's her thing.

"Malone and Madelynn come here right now!"

I stood there for a few minutes and nobody responded. I know these damn kids ain't ignoring me.

"MALONE AND MADELYNN!!"

I waited a few more minutes and still nothing. I went up the stairs and pushed the bedroom door open, "Why is it that I am constantly calling y'all an no one is responding."

"The door was closed mama."

I took a deep breath, "Get your asses downstairs and clean off my kitchen counter."

I stepped back in the hallway and Madison had her music blasting. I walked my cute self right down there and opened her room door. She was sitting in the mirror flattening her hair.

"Why is this music so loud? And have you finished your homework?"

She rolled her eyes, "Yes mama."

"Please roll your eyes again and I will slap the fuxk out of you!"

She shook her head, "Every time you get mad at daddy you walk around with this bad attitude."

"No I don't."

She looked at me and started putting on her shoes, "Yes you do ma. You're always angry!"

"Where are you going?"

She pushed her hair in a ponytail, "Why do you care! All you care about is Malone, Madelynn, and Daddy. You don't fuxk with me."

She pushed past me and took off out the front door. I couldn't even follow after her. All I had on was a shirt and some socks. When I went downstairs Malone and Maddy were on the couch crying.

"You made her leave us mom. She isn't going to come back!"

I wiped my tears, "She's going to come back."

Malone shook her head, "No her not mama. Her not coming back anymore!"

"If you're not happy why don't you just leave mama!!!"

I didn't have an answer for my children. It was hurting me seeing them hurt. I just don't know what to do anymore.

Madelynn grabbed two lunchables and walked upstairs, "Come on Malone...."

They disappeared upstairs. After and hour or two they went to sleep and I rolled a blunt and started smoking it. Madison left her phone so there was no tracking her down. She'll show up eventually.

I saw lights coming up the driveway. Julian walked in smelling like cheap perfume and sex.

"Are you smoking weed!?"

I sat up and stared into space, "Madison ran away."

"What! Did you call the cops."

I laughed and shook my head, "You're funny."