The Love In Marriage

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Keerthi gazed at her husband, wondering why he wasn't continuing kissing her.

She had a burning urge to do something,her body tingling in weird places.

Vikram lied down straight,not looking at his wife,his pants uncomfortable.

He closed his eyes, knowing his wife wasn't ready for that level of intimacy yet.

It was just a moment, Vikram convinced himself. The mad urge to make love to his wife will pass. His wife was not ready,he reminded himself.

Why else would she turn around when he held her breast?

It was soft over her top though,too soft. He couldn't stop wondering how it would feel when he cupped it bare. Vikram groaned softly, adjusting his pants discreetly.

Keerthi gathered a lot of courage,as she scooted closer to her husband, placing a hand on his stomach shyly, over his T-Shirt.

Vikram held his wife's hand in place, preventing it's movement."Go to sleep."

Vikram placed an arm on his face,covering his eyes, waiting for sleep.

Keerthi found her husband's tone cold. She didn't know why he was being aloof all of a sudden. They cuddled while they slept,normally. She didn't know if she had done anything wrong.

Keerthi quietly withdrew her hand from her husband's hold,as she turned to the opposite side,tears pricking her eyes as ugly insecurities seeped through her chest.

Her husband didn't want her, Keerthi thought bitterly,he didn't like her.

Why else would any man stop? She was his wife. She wanted him to do a lot more,though she was nervous. Good God!She even kissed his chest,how else was she supposed to hint him? It was true she wasn't ready to make love,be naked. But..but couples did a lot other things. She knew it.

He just didn't want her. That was it.

She placed a hand under her head, cushioning it,as she wiped a tear with her other hand, sniffing quietly.

His rejection hurt. Though she was apprehensive, Keerthi trusted her husband now. She wasn't ready for the big step yet,which was true. But the fact that her husband didn't want anything to do with her had her crying bitterly.

Keerthi was being a hypocrite. She herself didn't want to jump into it,but was sad that her husband had stopped? It was true she didn't want to have sex,but her husband not wanting it either stung her.

It was the first time they had progressed a little further than kissing. And he had stopped after just feeling up her a bit. Maybe he didn't desire her enough to continue. Maybe she put him off, Keerthi thought bitterly.

She wanted her husband's hands on her. Keerthi had a burning thirst for her husband. She was surprised at her thoughts. She had never wanted a man so bad. But she didn't find anything wrong in it. Vikram was her husband.

Had Virkam stopped because he respected her boundaries or just because he himself didn't want to proceed any further?

She sniffed,her heart hurting.

Vikram was almost sure he heard wrong when he heard his wife cry.

It was only when he heard her sniffing that he was alarmed.

Why was she crying?

Vikram grasped his wife's shoulder, turning her around, her face stained with tears.

"Why are you crying?", Vikram was bewildered.

Keerthi shook her head, looking down. Answering him would make her sound desperate. She wasn't. She was just sad her husband didn't want her.