The Tempting Temptation

The Question

Benjamin

2 weeks later

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It's been 2 weeks since Tavington has fucked me luckily, he won't try to fuck me again, if he does but I mean a man with that power is a major turn on.

He made me want the dominance and made me want to keep it.

He might continue not seeing me that hurts. I miss his dominating presence engulfing me in flames making me tremble in fear.

I'm just hurting of the fact we're gonna win and he has to go back to England very soon.

I wish he could stay here with me but my kids don't know I'm gay and I really do miss my wife but Tavington makes me feel alive.

More than my wife did. That's sad to think that the enemy can only make you feel so....special.

I mean after awhile it doesn't feel the same.

I finally understand the risk of my attraction to Tavington, it's a lot I could lose my kids, my wife's approval, I wish she was here, this wouldn't happen ever.

I would like to think it's a normal reaction to the intensity but it hurts.

The question is will Tavington love me, even after the war, will he hate me, is he using my body?

That's the question.