Step Brothers

I Don't Know

After that whole...encounter...in that one store, I ended up being dragged to the food court by Paris while the rest of them followed behind the both of us. Now we're currently sitting at one of the tables in the food court and it's super awkward...for me at least. 

Paris kept on talking about all the different people at the high school I'll be attending in a couple of days. To me, it sounds like she's the literal gossip queen with how much information she has on everyone she talked about. Of course most of this stuff went in one side and out the other, but it was more of shocked with how quickly she was talking. Like...where does she even muster this type of energy!? 

Blythe and the quads obviously weren't paying attention as they kept on glaring at each other, while taking not so subtle glances at me, and then Gabe and Sage seemed absolutely unimpressed by everything happening. Honestly, I don't even know what's happening at this point! I'm so damn confused that I feel like my brain literally just stopped working. 

"Ooh, what sports are you into, Lukah?" Paris asks as she takes a long sip from a drink she got from one of the various of food places scattered around the food court. Before we sat down, they all got food but I didn't feel like eating. Although, Paris has practically forced me to share food with her which...is kind of weird for me. I wonder if she's like this with all her friends.

Before I could even respond to her question, she instantly jumped in. This girl really needs to dial it down. I don't think I can keep up with her anymore. "You should totally try out for Cheer this year! I'm doing it and some of my friends are too, and I just know you'll love them!" She giggles. Again, before I could even say something to what she had to say, she started talking again. "Besides, if that wasn't enough to convince you, then let me tell you about the outfits- they're super cute and I know with your type of body, you'd look great in it too! Now the guy one of course..." Paris winked which caused my cheeks to heat up a bit.

"I-I'll think about it..." I nervously say as I began to fiddle my fingers. Paris giggled and wrapped her arm around my neck. "When are tryouts?"

"Oh, some after the first week of school! I'm not actually sure now that I think about it...but I'll let you know!" Paris giggles. "Ooh, can I have your number?" 

I took out my phone and we exchanged numbers. I saved her name as "Hyper Girl". Fitting, right? 

"We should get going..." Raiden finally speaks. None of the quads hadn't said a word since we came to the food court. That kind of surprised me...especially for Grant who seems to have as much energy as Paris, although I think Paris is much worse. "Come on, Lukah..." Raiden stood up and walked around to my side as he grabbed my arm and roughly pulled me away from Paris. His grip kind of hurt but I didn't say anything.

"Meanie, just when I was getting to know my bestie too~" Paris whines. Raiden rolled his eyes before beginning to walk away from the table, in the direction of the front of the mall. 

The other three quickly caught up to us and Raiden slowed his pace down. I could tell that their moods were all kind of delicate. Raiden seemed overall more grumpy than usual, then Grant had this pout on his face, Marshal's face was quite monotone, and then Keaton seemed to be in deep thought. I wasn't really paying attention to what they talked about with Blythe, but I knew they exchanged some words other than glaring. Was it something she said?

Once we got back in the car, they all remained silent. It was a really awkward drive home. Marshal didn't even touch the radio. It gave me some time to think about trying out for the Cheer team though. I mean...I guess I kind of do like sports, but I never in a million years saw myself doing Cheer. Honestly, I don't think I had a choice from the beginning...Paris would've probably brought me to tryouts anyways. 

When we arrived back 'home' I realized I hadn't bought a single thing at the mall. That kind of made me a bit upset, but I would just get stuff later. I bet Paris wouldn't mind bringing me to the mall. I don't think I have the heart to go back with them again.

I started walking up the stairs to my room when Marshal spoke. "Are you going to tryout?" His voice was kind of low, as if he were trying to keep a secret.

"I don't know...maybe," I shrugged. "W-why?" 

Marshal just hummed. "I was just curious..." I saw a slight smirk flash across his lips before he walked off towards the kitchen.

Curious? Why would he be curious about that? I don't know at this point, the things these boys do are questionable. I can't figure them out. 

I started back up the stairs and went in the direction of my room. I gently shut the door behind myself as I slipped into the room. I was going to decorate today, but I had no motivation to. I guess I would do it some time later. 

With a sigh, I sit at my bed. School is just a couple of days away and I'm getting more nervous by the moment. I guess things will be easier with Paris and their friends around, and I guess them too...but I don't know. Maybe I'm worrying about nothing, or maybe I'm not worrying enough. 

As embarrassing as it is to say it...I don't think they would let anything bad happen to me. I hate to admit that since I don't want to have to depend on them...but it's really reassuring to me. Ugh...I don't understand my feelings at all! I want to talk to Mom about it, but I'm kind of hesitant to. I know she is the first person I should go to about these kind of thoughts, because she's an Omega herself, but I'm not even sure what I'm going to say in the first place. What am I going to tell her, "I have these weird feelings for my step brothers and I'm not sure what it is." Of course I'm not going to say that! That would be such an awkward conversation to have and I don't even want to start there.

For now, I guess I'll just see how things are going. Maybe my feelings will cease once school starts and once I start meeting other guys, right? Everything will get better...

I don't know.