Pain Comes From Trauma {Suicidal Deku}

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I laughed at what he said. "Oi Nerd! Whatcha laughing about?!" He said angrily as he walked towards me. He lifted me up by my collar and looked at me in the eyes "What the fuck is wrong with you nerd?!" He yelled and I closed my eyes. "Kacchan's right... Maybe I should..." I moved his hand and walked out the room. He looked out in disbelief as I walked. I went home and mom wasn't there, she left a note that said "Im gonna be out a little later than usual. I left some money on the counter for you to get dinner. I love you and call me if you need me" I put the note down and said "I love you too." I didn't want to eat so I just went straight to my room and got paper out, I wrote a note for my mom and folded it. I wrote my other suicide note and it said

"Well... No one expected this to happen to me but it did. I'm dead now because of people that want to be judgmental and make fun of me for being quirkless. I didn't ask to be quirkless, Hell I wanted a quirk so I can become a hero. But I guess all dreams come to a end at some point and mine ended before anyone's dream had a chance to happen. Kacchan I hope you enjoy me accomplishing your request since that's the only thing I seem to do right. For anyone that would miss me (which is no one) I'm sorry I had to do this but I couldn't handle it anymore

Goodbye, Izuku Midoriya..."

Bakugos POV

I was sitting in my room thinking about what that nerd said "Kacchan's right... Maybe I should..." That shit made me hard as hell. He wouldn't kill himself, right? "Tch... That nerd wouldn't do that. He would punk out the last second." I turned off my light and went to sleep. Only to dream about him actually taking his life away.

Midoriyas POV (again)

I put the note in my bag and the one for my mom on the counter with a little vase and a rose. I had to show that I loved her and none of this was her fault. I went to my room and looked around for my blade "Damn it! Where the hell are you?" I asked furiously as I moved stuff around. I eventually found it and smiled "Thank the lord I found it!" I put it in my bag. I laid down and just thought to myself "Tomorrow is gonna be a good day!" I fell asleep as I thought about when I should do it...

The next morning

I woke up with a big smile on my face. "Today's the day" I thought to myself as I got up and got dressed for school. "Doing this a week before the last day of school. It's feels kinda good" i said louder. I got everything together and grabbed my bag and headed out the door. Before I did I looked at where I set my moms note and rose and it was untouched so I ran to her room and kissed her on the forehead and said "I love you and Thank you for everything." She smiled faintly as she rolled over saying "I love you too." Not paying to much attention to it,

~Time skip to school~

I decided I would do it at break since everyone would be doing their own thing and won't pay any attention to me. I went to my seat and sat down as the bell rang. I tapped my fingers against the desk in excitement. Kacchan growled but I didn't stop. I was tired of taking his bullshit anymore, he is the reason I'm doing this. Few classes later and the bell rang which meant it was break. I jumped up, grabbed my bag and jogged out the classroom. I went to the roof and dropped my bag. The breeze felt so good. I took my shoes off and put them on top of the note I wrote.

⚠️SENSITIVE TOPIC: SELF HARM! IF YOU DON'T LIKE STUFF LIKE THAT YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED⚠️

I grabbed the pocketknife I had in my bag and put it to my wrist. I glided the blade several times and then switched arms. The crimson liquid peak from my cuts. I did a few more on my upper arms also. I put the blade down and stood on the edge...

And jumped...