Goodnight Forever

Chapter One

Love.

It's getting rarer and rarer these days. People are getting selfish, delusional, and just start to hate each other and to destroy each other. People are fighting each other instead of fighting for each other.

Humanity is just going to swallow up itself. We're all doing the same thing everyday.

We wake up, eat, shit, go to work, go to school, take care of our family, look out for our family, browse the internet for hours, watch television, take a bath and etc.

Our parents are telling us that we shouldn't be selfish and money is the root of all evil, yet when we get older, they would tell us "not to take this job" because you'll receive a low salary.

Parents told us not to judge but they're the one who judged their children aswell.

Girls are putting a lot of makeup because of these impossible standards. Guys want these and that, but in vise versa, girls do that too. Some of us are not contented and still asks for something better.

Opinions are being taken way too seriously right now even it really has nothing to do with us. A lot of people say that they don't judge. You would say that either but yeah you do.

Yes, you do.

We all need judgement. We all need to judge what's wrong and what's right. It's just the wrong kind of judgment is what destroy us all.

So think about it. Think about these stuffs that destroyed a lot of people which end up to mental illness or suicide.

When is this going to stop? When will be the time that no one on earth will look down on her/himself? When will be the time that bullying and sexual harassment will stop? And self hate? And self harm? How about all the pain that everyone has to endure? When will this all stop?

The change starts with you.

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I remember the time where I was sitting at the staircase and watching. my parents arguing downstairs. I was too young to even watch that scene.

My childhood is full of curiosity and confusion. I always ask my parents about random things and sometimes they get annoyed with those questions. So the next I did is to figure it out myself. To seek answers.

That's where I started judging the right things to do and the wrong ones.

Back into the reality, I get rid of the stuffs that explodes in my head and decided to focus on what the teacher is discussing in the class.

Even school is mess these days. Learning is suppose to be fun, but now all I care is to sit there for hours and get good grades to graduate to college and get a job to work until I die. I couldn't even tell anyone what I really learn in school. Yeah, I can memorize a lot of bullshit but it never really teaches me some real life skills. What they teach you in school are things that everyone doesn't really need to learn.

"Bon, are you still listening to what I'm talking here?" the teacher asked.

I nodded slowly and tried to focus again. I wished that I could just be free and just do whatever I want but... Life's a bitch. It always will, but let it be. Just live it.

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Nneka here. I promise I'll try to make this romantic or whatsoever even though I don't really like those lovey dovey scenes on stories hehe.

- Nneka the Psycho