Change

~ Two ~

I recommend How To Save A Life for this chapter because I like the song.

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REBECCA'S POV

In all my life I have never felt so bad. It just hurts so much and I feel as if I shouldn't care but I do. All my life I have told myself not to care what other people think about me and do what makes me happy but as much as I try to deny it, I care.

I hate the way my hair is so fizzy and the fat hanging from my legs. I hate that I can't stop eating and how fat I've gotten. I hate my face and all my pimples. It hurts so much to know that the person you like is thinking the same thing.

I've always cared. In movies you see those perfect girls that have no flaws what so ever. When I was little I'd watch TV and dream about being one of those girls. The girls who get all the guys and get invited to party's. I've never been a party person. I haven't been to one so I don't actually know that but the idea of a party gets me really excited.

I'm currently sitting on my bed, eating away my life. Eating, eating and eating. That's why I'm so fat. All I do is eat my feelings away. When I'm sad or angry, eating solves everything.

I look down and see tubs of ice cream, packets of chips and chocolate wrappers. What am I doing? I can't change what people think about me but maybe I can change.

But how?

I have no idea how I would even start to lose weight and I don't know anything about fashion. I have money saved up from working at the local supermarket that I can easily use to shop with but I don't know what I would even get.

I need an expert and I know exactly who to call.

I pick up my phone and scroll though my contacts. Until I reach the name Chloe Cher. Chloe Cher is probably my only friend. Her and her family are like family friends and our mums work together and that's how we met. We aren't that close but I've known her for years and I know she'll help me. She loves fashion and always knows what's in style.

I clicked the green call button and put the phone to my ear. It rings for a few seconds before I hear a very cheerful voice pick up on the other side.

"HI" she squeaked

It doesn't surprise me she answered like that because this girl is the happiest person I have ever spoken to in my life. I have never seen her without a bright smile on her face.

"Hey" I said but my voice sounded tired and drained from all the crying I've been going and I think she noticed.

"Hey Rebecca, are you okay" she asked sounding very concerned.

"I'm fine....it's just - I - I umm - don't worry. I'm sorry." I stuttered

"Wait! What do you mean? What's wrong?" She asked. I paused.

"I - um well I was wondering if we could meet up some or something"

"Sure but what's wrong?" She asked yet again

"I don't want to be a nerd anymore! I want to be skinny and pretty. I can't handle it anymore..... I just want to be beautiful." I cried out

"Okay I understand but what are you gonna do?" she asked

I thought about this. What can I do?

"I can lose weight. I have to lose weight." I say wiping tears from my face.

There was a pause and she then said
"Listen I don't know how to help you lose weight so you have to do that on your own but once your happy with your weight I'll take you out shopping, we'll get our nails done, we'll get our hair done and even get a facial. Okay?"

"Okay, thank you so much" I said

"It's okay.... I just don't like hearing you upset" she said

"Thank you" I said yet again

"Bye"

"Bye"

It really makes me happy to know that someone cares. Not even my own parents care about me. My parents are the type of people who focus on work more than their own child. My mother is a doctor and my dad is a lawyer.

I slowly walk into the family gym and stare at the treadmill. It's going to be hard but it has to be done. I turn the treadmill on and start running.

Have to start somewhere right?

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Hey 👋 I'm really sorry this isn't edited but that's mainly because editing is a weak spot for me so I'll be asking my friend to help me. I know that phone call was a bit weird but I'll improve on it later :) and again please give me feedback. All unkind comments made towards me will be deleted so don't bother posting it.