A year later from the last poem about you
A year later and I've been crushed by you
A year later and you did the worst thing ever
I would've been in her shoes
I can't shake that I should've been in her shoes
Nothings changed
I still want to be in those shoes
It's difficult to explain
I shouldn't want that with you
I shouldn't want you
You said that yourself right
You don't feel worthy
Deserving
So it'll cycle
The dumb shit will keep happening
How can you give me what I deserve
if you can't accept what I'm trying to give
The type of love I'm trying to give
The type of care I'm dying to give
To both of you
There's no you without her now
And if you think I went through this
Stayed through this
For you to learn from me for blended family
With anyone other than me
You're in for a rude awakening
I'm getting something out of this
Not from a material standpoint
But with some outward expression of love
From all the love I at least put in
A return on my heart so to speak
If at the very least I can't walk away with you
After 2 years there's been regression
Do "terrible two's" apply to relationships too?
Does "thirds times the charm" apply to one last sincere shot at this
At us
Cause we're great honestly when you not fucking up
We're silly
We're caring
We're loving
But those moments where you do your thing
And leave me high and dry
And I get cut off and pushed out
It becomes that much harder to believe you love me
It becomes that much harder to have faith in this
A year later and I don't know
I'm scared of the unknown
A year later and
I'm scared to fall for you more
But I can't risk falling out of love
