(FANfics_lydia) To get to you

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"who is there?' i ask yelling, Who the hell would be in here at a time like this. "lydia!" the voice yelled even loud making me cover my ears. "what?!' i yelled super loud since i could hardly hear. "im you while... your brain aka your smart side." the voice said i could now see them. It was me in a hostpel dress. Like i was back there. "what do you want?" i ask now scraed. how am i talking to myself? "lydia you should kill yourself! Every one is hiding stuff what if they are hiding their hateness to you?" Me or Them or what ever they are. my eyes started to water. Maybe the voice is right? Maybe i should end it? i walked up to the mirror walking thought myself. Making my brain ghost go away. "your nothing!" i heard making me turn around since it came from baehind me. "no one likes you!" a voice said that was now in front of me making me turn to the front. "FINE IM KILLING MYSELF!" i yelled almost so loud my ears could melt. I picked up my back pack walking out of this school one more time

stiles pov~

with everything going on with me feeling like its my flaut why lydia is not talking to me. No actully it is my flaut its ALL my fault! i then got out of my throughts because my phone ringing... "hello?' i pick it up, you could hear someone behind the phone crying. "wheres lydia?" the voice said i could hardly make out what they was saying. "i beilive that she is at school why?" I say my voice getting worried. "she isnt! Looking around the school! She is gone!" the voice yelled crying. i started to freak out. Running down the stairs quickly. "i will find her!" i yelled to the phone hanging up.

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a ran 8 red lights driving to lydias house. Lydia has to be there save, no harm done. Or i dont know what i would do. i got out of my car running inside to lydias house basically breaking the door as i did it. My eyes starting to water up so scaryed.

lydias pov~

"Lydia do it!" i yelled at myself crying. My eyes so fulled with tears i couldnt stop. "AHHHHHH!" I yelled once again trying to pull the trigger but i couldnt. "lydia you are nothing!" i yelled once again trying to pull the trigger. Nothing, I couldnt even kill myself right. I then heard the door opening, with the gun still my head.

i turned my head to the door. There everyone was allison, Scott, and... him.

"lydia stop please!" Allison yelled in the door away, stiles slowly walking to me. Scott went to hold allsion.

"lydia..." stiles said i then yelled, "NO your not stopping me! IM NOTHING!" stiles now had tears running down his checks.

"lydia your everything, Your an beatiful person, your allisons sister, your scotts best friend, lydia... your my true love." he finished, me crying even more. "your true love?" i ask, "yes lydia im in love with you every part of you. Your smile, Your laugh, Your hair, How beatiful your body is. Lydia if you die, I would go out of my freaking mind!" He finished. I looked at the gun I felt my hands doing the opposite of what I want making the gun slowly leave my head. Making them all run to me. All of them hugging me, with me hugging back. I still wanted to go but i wanted stiles also. I will never want to live but i want to live for stiles.

everyone slowly backed away stiles staying in front of me. I needed his kisses, His love, His body. 

i pull stiles in for a kiss. His lips hitting mine at first not kissing back. But he slowly melted into it. Putting his hands around my body, My wist. His hands made me feel at home. But I knew something just didn't feel right, like I still wanted to go but I couldn't.

I pulled away to see Allison and Scott looking at us with their eyes bugged. Allison's eyes still had a couple tears coming out of them.

Stiles just stood there shocked that I kissed him, after everything I kissed him. It felt really good but wrong, in all types of ways.

"Stiles?" I whispered, "yes?" He said but. I pulled him close to me and whispered in his ear. "I still want to go." I said without any emotion in my voice. Stiles smile faded into sadness as I walked over to Allison. Stiles still standing there.

"Lydia what happened, Why would you do this to us?" Allison ask kind of yelling making me jump. I looked her in her eyes.

"You? What do you mean? Your the one who decided not to tell me that dad has cancer!" I yelled back making everyone jump.

"Chris as cancer?" Scott says, stiles still stood there after what I said about wanting to leave.

"Yes, and Allison didn't tell me! She keep it to herself like all the other times. Well Allison I keep stuff from you also!" I yelled at her making her jump even more. Scott started to get infront of Allison and me.

Stiles just now getting to me, pulling me back from Allison. "Why did the gun leave my head!? You really want to know! It wasn't because of you! It was because I love stiles! You just made everything worst with you keeping streets from me!" I yelled my voice hurting now.

Allison and Scott just stood there just like stiles did. The angry in side of me making me lose everything. Allison started to cry again, as I began to ran out of the room with stiles following me.

"I can't! I can't!" I yelled running down the stairs thinking of everything I said. Everything just now hitting me.

I yelled at Allison, tried killing myself, kissed stiles, my dad has cancer. I can't believe all of this is happening.

Tears running down my face. I felt warm arms go around my waist. Hugging me close.

"I'm a terrible person." I whispered crying now slowly. I turn to cry into stiles chest lying my head on his shirt.

"No your not, your not any of those things. Your an amazing person." Stiles said pulling over to the couch so I could lay down.

I slowly climbed into his lap my head on his shoulder. "Everyone will get over this day... it just was hard." Stiles said holding me still as my eyes closed and I went to sleep.