[COMPLETED] still on my mind (forthbeam's story)

SPECIAL CHAPTER

Beam's PoV

i quickly ran and get into my car , didnt even looking back , i thought i was brave enough , i thought i was bold enough , but turned out my heart beats like this , i never knew that he could make me like this , even though i was the one who kiss him first

i touched my own lips , i still can remember his lips on mine , even it just a soft touch , i couldnt stop thinking about it , his eyes that looking blankly at me , trust me .. i also want to beat myself to death because i did that ..

i threw myself on the bed , staring out the window , my mind still wandering somewhere , i grabbed my bag on the floor and take out my camera, i smiled as i looked at the picture of him , i knew he's been stalking me for week , he always parked his car near science food court, Wayo and Ming told me everything .. since then i always took a picture of him from afar , he didnt know that i also stalked on him ..

i touched his face on my viewfinder, admiring him ..

okay .. maybe it sounded weird , i didnt even know how to explain this feeling ..

he's way older than me , but he's still that handsome ..

i dont know him but i feel warm on his hug , that hug that only lasted for seconds , but the moment he pulled me on his hug and he shed tears , it feels like i wanted to hug him even tighter and tell him everything is okay ..

even though i dont know what's bothering him , or what makes him hug me like that .. but i'm getting greedy .. i want him to hug me again , i want him to see me again , i want him to be responsible for this annoying feeling that i have now for him ..

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Forth's Pov

what is it ... what nonsense is it ..

i stood under the cold water running from my shower , i hit the tiles infront of me many times , so much until i wounded my knuckles , why did i let that kid played such a trick on me , why did i let him cross the line , why didnt i even pushed him away when our lips touched ?

wake up Forth !! you cant do this to Beam .. he's not your Beam !

remember Forth .. you only have one Beam in your heart , and nothing would ever change that ..

the next days , i didnt go to the university or near him again , i promised myself not to involved myself with that kid again , i wont let my heart waver like this again , i wanted to get rid of him from my life completely, i wanted to go back to my life before i met that kid

*beep*

i opened my phone to read the incoming chat

"i miss you , you have to miss me too.."

that kid ... where did he get my number ?! oh forget it .. if it's not Lam, then it's Phoom or even Ming .. what should i bother to ask , they always had their weird initiative before even asking me ..

i deleted the chat and went straight to the office ..

at the office , Tine informed me that Phana and Kit will come at noon , after all this years and everything happened, Phana , Kit and me became a good friend, Phana now became a head doctor in my company site's hospital , Kit now stayed in Bangkok and ran his own clinic , i often met him as well

Tine knocked the door "khun Forth .. doc Phana and doc Kit already here ..."

"let them in Tine .." i closed my worked