In The Mid Winter

ITMW CHAPTER 1

CHAPTER 1

That day i was dumped

"Let's break up Brai"

Nagulat ako ng sabihin ng girlfriend ko ang mga salitang yan sa harap ko.

Kumakain kami ng lunch ngayon sa The Lounge restaurant para icelebrate ang 5 years anniversary namin, alam kong nanlalamig na siya sakin pero ayokong maghiwalay kame kasi mahal na mahal ko siya but this time tama na ayoko ng saktan pa siya kaya bago pa kame magtungo dito inihanda ko na ang sarili ko sa mga sasabihin niya pero hindi ko inakala na magugulat pa rin pala ko

"I don't think na magwowork pa relationship natin"

"Alright" nasasaktan ako pero ayoko siyang piliting mag stay sa relationship naming dalawa kahit kahit na masaki i need to accept it ako ang lalaki kaya dapat ako ang mas nakakaintindi saming dalawa

I guess it is true it will hurt less once you anticipated it

Mabilis kong ininom ang wine na nakaserved sa table namin at saka ko siya hinarap para tignan sa huling sandali ang muka ng babaeng minahal ko ng limang taon

"You could have just texted it, don't waste my time"

"I'm really sorry" I know na ako ang may kasalanan kung baket siya nakikipaghiwalay, kung sana lang naging perfect man ako sa kanya masaya pa sana kami ngayon. But i failed

There's nothing left for me to do but walk away

"Magiging okay ka ba?"

I stop when she asked me that question.

"Of course, why wouldn't i be? " i really don't think na magiging ok ako pagkatapos ng paguusap namin ngayon mahal na mahal ko siya pero alam kong wala ng patutunguhan relasyon naming dalawa

"Are you sure?" she looked at me with such pity

I smile at her and pretend that she didn't hurt me that much

"Look, you don't have to worry about me, surely there is one perfect girl out there who can replace you" masakit sakin sabihin ang mga salitang yon sa harap niya.. Sa harap ng babaeng akala ko makakasama ko habang buhay

"She will be beautiful than you, she won't nag at me all the time, she will be more understanding and she will appreciate me and most of all she won't ever leave me. So yes i'm going to be okay. Because i'm going to find that girl"

I hurt her but she hurt me more. And today i can confirm that the shit i said to her can't came true.

Hindi ko napansin na nasa tapat na pala ko ng kotse ko pagkatapos kong sabihin sa kanya lahat iniwan ko siyang mag isa. Nag drive ako pauwi at habang nasa daan paulit ulit nagsisink sa utak ko ang mga sinabi ni Azalea

"Aghhh shit. Nobody told me it was going to be hard being single"

Nasanay akong palaging siyang nasa tabi ko, binago niya ko ipinakita niya sakin ang totoong pagmamahal na kailangan ko kaya nagtagal kami pero why? Why do we need to end our relationship so quick? Isang linggo pa lang kaming nag break gusto ko na siyang makita at makasama

I hardly leave our place after we break up. Well, except when i go to Company. When i occasionally see her doing better than me.

I hardly leave our place after we break up. Well, except when i go to Company. When i occasionally see her doing better than me.

"Find that perfect girl" my ass.
San naman ako hahanap ng mas maganda at mas perfect sa kanya para sakin siya lang ang perpektong babae. F*ck I'm going to be insane.