I feel more at ease, but I still feel the guilt. Why am I so stupid? Why do I keep doing so much wrong? I'm sorry that I wasn't good enough, I'm sorry that I might never be. Every time I try to change, it all just gets worse and nobody knows, because nobody understands. I wish that I knew what to do, I feel like I should've learned so much more from being unable to save you.
CP, I'm sorry.
Sorry that I failed you, sorry if I'm still letting you down, sorry for the pain I've caused. You were a great person, an even better friend and the best brother. My family has never been a family, but you became my family. And I am so thankful for all the time I got to spend with you. I am so thankful that I got to know you. I am so thankful to have felt your love and to have been able to love you.
Thank you, CP.
I like the thought of you reading today. The other day was hard, but today is a good missing day. I went back yesterday to the server we met on in Minecraft, but I left pretty quick. They erased everything and it's even more like your ghost is still there. It's the one place I can visit you safely and without question. But if I could visit your grave, if someone would show me where to go, I would come. But I can only promise that I will find you in the next life.
I miss you. I'm sorry. Thank you
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I'm Sorry
RandomI can't let go. I've tried, for years. But I can't. Just like I can't stop the tears from falling again. I know that you're gone, truly gone. And we will never talk again. But I can still write to you. And who knows, maybe you are able to read this...
