Know it's bad
But the thrill is so good
Open skin
Heaven is a fucking sin
Suicide thoughts running through my mind
Even if I die u won't give a damn
Endless fear
Needles sticking in
Broken glass stuck in my bloody skin
The broken record inside my head keeps playing the same "kill yourself song"
While I am throwing up on the bathroom floor
Wish I could but I'll never tell
I know i'ma go to hell
Wish I could but i'll never say all the shit that keeps going 'round my head
It's too traumatizing but honestly, I'm used to it
- Being helpless And used like a piece of shit
The thoughts of dying are still alive
Kinda like myself, but at least they have a passion
Still depressed? Still sad?
But when I speak I can't say what's on my mind
You are never wrong but then why I am so fucking cold?
Cutting down my hands didnt stopped the pain inside my chest
Trying to be happy, But when I am, you never stay
At night I always pray
For my demons to go away ///
Wish the overdose helped cause then I wouldn't have to cover my shit,
Trying to run from it, but
I am running in circles there's nowhere to go
I am sad again, time to let it go
Wish I could but I'll never tell
I know i'ma go to hell
Wish I could but i'll never say all the shit that keeps going around my head
It's too traumatizing but honestly, I'm used to it
- Being helpless And fucking useless all the time
Still thinking should I even try to stay,
knowing nothing will be the same
Will Never tell you my shit cause it's too depressing
The thoughts of dying are still alive
At least they have a passion
Can't understand this fashion,
Why everything has to be okay,
I am better with my life being grey
No one cares why I wear long sleeves
The scars under them were helpful for a time - longer than my chance to die
Honestly if it makes you feel better, I'll be okay on by my own,
laying on the bloody floor,
watching the lamp shinin'
as I close my eyes - finally I am fucking dying
YOU ARE READING
just breathe
Romance!! CAUTION !! - contains suicidal thoughts, strong language, sexual content and usage of drugs some viewers/readers might find offensive. - everything is written by personal point of view, experiences, such as - depressions, panic attacks and anxi...
