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Sydney or Cindy?

Disclaimer: throughout the entire fanfic there will be graphic details, sexually and physically. If you are sensitive to gore, sexual activities, suicide etc. do not continue reading the story.
I do not own Victorious or any of it's characters.
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I sit alone, well not really alone. I'm sitting with my friends. Well I guess they're Becks friends. Except for Cat, Cats the only person I have except for Beck. Just like every afternoon at Hollywood Arts. The black lace trim on my skirt is rubbing against my pale thigh and despite my constant swatting at it, it continues to pester me.
I'm pushing my salad around it's plastic container, waiting for Beck to come back with my coffee. My feet slightly tap against the asphalt.
"Heyyy! Do you know where Becky is?" A tan girl with marvelous legs taps my shoulder. The difference between her and I is obvious.
"Uh... why are you wondering where my boyfriend is" I sneer, enunciating the last part.
"He said that he'd help me with a scene." Her glossed lips turn into a small smile when she thinks about him.
I close my eyes and drop my fork into the small container, I can hear a small plink when it touches the plastic.
"I don't know where Beck is." I mutter quietly. I don't know why I can't get used to this. Beck volunteering to help girls out with their scenes. Not telling anyone he has a girlfriend despite us dating for 3 years.
Once the tanned beauty, that Beck probably thinks is hotter then me leaves, I open my eyes and see that everyone is staring at me.
"I-I gotta go... tell Beck that I'll give him a ride home if he needs it.. or if he's gonna stay late to help.. with scenes." I say and race to the janitor closet before they can respond, as I'm running to my safe haven I see Beck leaning against the food truck talking to a blonde. His eyes flicker up and reach mine, I try to hold back my tears and continue to look at him but I can't and quickly turn my head.
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(Becks POV)
I'm talking to a random girl. I think she said her name was Cindy? Or was in Sydney? It doesn't matter. I hope the Jade looks up from her salad soon so that she can start screaming at this Sydney/Cindy girl. I hear plastic hitting the trash bin and I look up to see Jade running by us. Her eyes are filled with Jealousy and Hurt. The jealousy plastered across her face whenever I talk to a "hot" girl gives me a high. Sure, I know I'm hurting her but it's almost worth it for her to be so possessive. Some how she gets hotter when she's jealous which I didn't think was possible.
I expect Jade to come running up to me and this rando chic but instead she rubs her eyes and runs away.
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(Jades POV)
     I slam the janitor door behind me and sink against the plastic trash can behind me. The blade of the scissors tucked into my skirts waist band digs into my skin. I grit my teeth and pull the blades out, inspecting the sharp metal that glistens in the light. I glance back up at the door to the closet, making sure no one was peering in. When I'm assured, I press the blade against my snow-white skin. Red immediately seeps down my arm and onto my green sleeve.
I smirk at it and grab some toilet paper from the shelf. A memory flickers though my mind

-flashback-

"How can you kill us with toilet paper?" Andre questions. I glare at him and shift my attention back to Tori. Were guys so disgusted by me that they didn't even want to date me? Was Beck just dating me out of pity?

-end of flashback-

I aggressively rub the toilet paper against my cuts until it burns. I rip my sleep down so it covers the self inflicted wounds. Then throw the remainder of the toilet paper into the trash can. I quickly stuff the scissors back into my waistband, which makes it pierce the flesh on my hip. I ignore the pain and run to class before I'm even later then I already am.
I slam the door open into Sikowitz class and examine the empty seats in the class. My eyes immediately flicker to Beck. He's surrounded by probably the models for Brandy Melville. Tall, Slim, Fit and Tan. Laughing along with their constant chattering. My eyes stay on him for far too long.
Cat calls me over to her, my eyes shift back to Beck for a moment before slowly moving to Cats side of the room.
"Alright kiddys!" Sikowitz exclaims much too enthusiastic for my taste, I roll my eyes at his high pitched voice
"Now Jade. Don't be such a gank." Sikowitz sighs dramatically and sips his coconut milk.
My breath gets caught in my throat. And my eyes flicker up to Sikowitz. His eyes are filled with disappointment, probably because I'm not like Vega. Probably because I'm myself. Not skinny or tan.
Tears begin to well in the ducts of my eyes but I blink them away before anyone can notice.
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(Becks POV)
I know that Sikowitz has taken it too far by the way Jades shoulders slump down. I can't see her face but I see her head drop and she begins picking at her nails. I glance up at Sikowitz and he's awkwardly looking at his feet. I can tell he feels bad but doesn't say anything.
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(Jades POV)
The silence fills the room and I shift nervously in my chair.
"Alright! Drive by acting exercise!" Sikowitz says abruptly
"You're all turtles in love!"