Up in flames

Putting out the flames

I've had all night to think and there's no way that I am going to let him win this argument so I tiptoe into his room, this is my first time in his room, I was about to crawl into his arms but then I see it. The walls are covered in newspaper reports and photos ,with red wool connecting all the photos and all the wool seemed to lead to the centre, lead to the wreckage of my house.  "WHAT THE HELL IS THIS!" I scream angrily intending to wake him and it worked.

"What??"At first he seemed confused and dazed but now he gets it "Oh...Avery I wanted to tell u but it's not as simple as it might seem."

"I have a right to know what's going on and you know it, they were my parents too."

"All I'm willing to say now is that this is much bigger than that one fire. Our family has secrets."

"What secrets?"

"I'll tell you when the time is right." He stands up and comes closer to me but I'm just too confused to comply with one of his famous embraces and I walk away. I don't get far because he grabs my arm to stop me "Don't to this, don't freeze me out. You're like mum, you know, once you give someone the cold shoulder they can just as well die from frostbite."

"And you know that from what? The three weeks you've known me."

"You know I can see right through you"

"Well hello there, Avery expert!" I sarcastically scream at him

"Where is all this coming from?"

"Didn't you hear I'm just a sixteen year old!! Must be my raging hormones!" I slam my door in his face before he has a chance to reply.

'Tap' 'tap 'tap', He lightly knocks on the door "I have to go to work but when I'm home we have to talk" I'm too busy sobbing to answer him and as soon as he leaves I feel horrible. What did I just do, why did I just do that. He looked so hurt when I screamed at him. I decide to make him dinner, that's all I could think of to do to apologise. I start cooking but the reality is I'm horrible at cooking and too scared to eat my own food. Even with this knowledge I continue with my plans and set the table with candles everywhere. I put on one of my cute new outfits and wait for him in the dark with the lit candles

"Shit, did I forget to pay the bills again" his voice wakes me from my drifting thoughts

"This is my idea of an apology" I say standing up to greet him with a hug "I acted like the bratty teenager you think I am today and I'm really sorry about that."

"No, you were angry and confused and you needed to vent I understand that, you don't need to apologise." He accepts my hug and sweetly kisses me. "So let's eat this wonderful dinner you prepared"

We go sit at the table and I wait for him to take his first bite. As the food entered his mouth his whole face cringed "So were ordering takeout."

"I promise I didn't try to poison you." I laugh; I still can't laugh without feeling guilty.

"Why do you do that, why do you punish yourself for being happy"

"They were my happy, how is it fair for them be gone but my happiness to stay."

"You're allowed to find happiness somewhere else, with someone else." He reaches out to me and pulls me closer our faces are millimetres apart his strong coffee scent putts me in a trance and the short bristles of his beard lightly tickles my face. Time is standing still and suddenly it speeds forward as he passionately kisses me. I didn't even feel him taking of my top but it's long gone and now he's taking of his sweater. His crotch grinds against me as he pushes me back against the wall but then he just stops moving his hands from my breasts to the wall. His face hovers above mine as he breathlessly pants "I can't." He turns around, his sweaty muscular back facing me, and walks away. I'm way too turned on to let him walk away again so I run after him and jump wrapping my legs around him. As I ferociously kiss his neck he somehow gets me of his back and carries me to my room and throws me on my bed. He's on top of me kissing me and cuffing my hand to the bed. Wait, cuffing my hand?

"I said: I can't." His voice is low and  heavy but he somehow resists the feeling to jump me and covers me with blankets. "Goodnight" he kisses my forehead like a brother.