Creeper -Grethan- (NOT on hold)

Ten

Did ya guys know that Rue's actor, Amandla Stenberg, is gay? BRUH SHE'S BEAUTIFUL, can she be mine?

Grayson's POV

Let's set things... straight. Ha, I'm gay but I'm talking real here. I... I am a very scared person. My past isn't too great and I barely just got out of the hell I lived on earth. I'm happier now. Ethan's really helped brighten my mood but I still flinch. I still whimper. And I still believe that it'd take only one moment for this kind man to turn on me and hurt me.  

But I feel safe. I feel so much safer with him. It's like I'd known him my whole life and I know he feels that way too. I trust that he will take care of me and help me overcome the past abuse from bullies, my parents, "friends", etc. 

So now that I'm on the verge of believing it's all over now, I went to let myself loose. Be the man I've always wanted to become. I don't want to let the past get to me but I will let any emotions show through. I don't want to reflect back on what could've done but instead, grow and learn to live, learn to love by myself alone. 

I have little pity for my life but it is still there. It is always present at the back of my mind and I know I deserve to have it. 

It was tough fighting for happiness every day when people brought me down... fought me physically. And I'm not a fan of physical abuse but I let myself enjoy the silent defiance by practicing to smile. Practicing to find the good in things. Saving up so I can finally live the happy life that I truly think I deserve.  

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When the movie started I got the chills. A short memory had me gasping and Ethan looked over at me worriedly. The déjà vu I had felt so real and I know I had lived this exact moment before. Nevertheless, I cuddled the blanket and leaned slightly towards Ethan.

I wasn't such a fan of The Hunger Games. I'm not saying it's bad and I don't enjoy it... its just. There is so much killing and gory and it makes me feel queasy. But it is a nice movie it's just not for me. 

If it made Ethan happy though, I'll bear with it for an hour and a half. If he was here I feel safe anyway and I couldn't just say no to the way he was practically jumping with excitement. 

"Ethan, stop that," I giggled because he was literally bobbing on the bouncy couch. The dip from his much larger body made me slide closer to him each time he jumped down. 

"Sorry, I'm just so excited. I haven't seen this movie in a while." He sighed and calmed down, smiling at me then turning back to the screen. 

"Me too. I used to watch it all the time but... it's just a little too bloody for me."

This made him stop completely. 

"We don't need to watch it if you don't want to," He asked worriedly and I started to panic thinking I upset him.

"I-I If-"

"You don't need to be scared Gray, you have me," And to seemingly prove that further, he wrapped an arm around me and gently shoved me in his chest. 

(Gently shoved. BAHHAH)

"P-please..." let go, I was going to say but I really didn't want him to.

I've never been this close to a man since I was young. Even then it was only with this boy.

His arms felt familiar and comforting and I felt loved. 

"Please what, Gray?" He asked softly and I just shook my head, burrowing it deeper into his delightfully scented chest. 

Warm. 

Safe. 

Home.

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"NOOOO, YOU STUPID BRAT! SHE WAS SO YOUNG! *sob* Why'd she have to die?!" I've never cussed that much and to that extent in my lifetime. It just felt natural to do so and since Ethan just chuckled as I screamed loudly at the screen I'm sure he didn't mind. 

But poor Rue was impaled by a spear and died in Katniss' arms as she cried and screamed for the death of her friend. This part is so sad! I think I cried every time. 

"Shhh, it's just a movie Gray." Ethan laughed though I saw his eyes glistening with fresh tears brimming his eyes.  He just sniffled once and pulled me closer to him. So close that I was basically sitting on his lap and my face flushed a deep red as I became limp. 

I couldn't really focus on the movie anymore, even though just a few moments ago I was completely invested in it, because of the warmth and security I was in. His arms wrapped around me and I could feel the ghost of his breaths in my hair. Goosebumps littered my body and I involuntarily shivered despite the warmth. 

I guess he noticed my change in my behavior since he was quick to apologize. 

"I'm so sorry Gray. Did I make you uncomfortable? I didn't mean to be so close!"

He was about to shift under me and away before I stopped him. 

"N-no stay, please. You're warm." I stuttered out softly. 

It felt so good to be with him and feeling his body against mine made me melt. 

"Okay." He breathed out and we stayed in that position for the rest of the night. 

Me falling asleep in his arms was something that felt so right to me... I really don't understand why I have such a strong and deep pull of affection for this man that I knew almost nothing about. 

But... at the same time I feel as if I'd known him my whole life. Gosh, I really don't understand anything right now. 

I sighed to myself as I laid my head on a snoring Ethan's shoulder. 

I closed my eyes.

I peeked one open.

I kissed his jaw.

And then I was out cold.

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Ehhhh, short chapter buttttt, tell me what you think!

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-SOUP <3