OUR PURPOSE.

7. EVERYTHING'S COMPLICATED.

I didn't planned the thing, Aaishapat.(Mother promise)

I just told Vishal that I liked her and I am damn sure, that as*hole planned it. But, I am happy he did it.

The kiss wasn't bad. She tasted abit like chai. I liked it. I guess she liked it too. I wanted more, I wanted my hands to explore her, to touch her face, hold her waist, to make her believe that she was my first, to make her feel special, to pull her close to me, but we had audience and I'll rather do it somewhere private.

After the kiss, she let me hold her hand. I felt like pure bliss.

And then, I left her like a godamn idiot. But what could I do?
The pained face of Omkar stirred something inside me. I felt as if I am cheating on him. He just glanced my way and went away.

The day we spent together was really good.

I took him to my go to food place.
Then he told me that he was too a foodie. He said he loved the place.

I asked him about his tattoo on wrist. He looked shocked and asked me If I was serious. I just shrugged.

Then he told me about the LGBT community. He told me about how he went to the pride parade every year since he found out he was gay. He invited me to come with him next year. I said I am straight. His expression was very similar to 'Tell that bullshit to yourself'. We exchanged no's. and damn, this guy has hell of a humour.

I came to a conclusion that,

I feel something for him. A connection. A bond. A pull. But I am not gay. Or wait, am I?

But also, this ain't nothing as compared to what I feel towards zoya.

Omkar ke sath mera rishta jaise koi dariya par zoya k sath jaise koi gehra samundar jismein bas dhub jaane ka man karta hai.
(If my relationship with omkar is like a river, then with zoya it's like a deep ocean in which I loved to drown)

I think I could be a good shayar, someday.

But if I have strong feelings towards Zoya, than what's the confusion, right? But, it's way more complicated.

With Omkar I am more me, sounds weird I know but he just makes me feel better.

With Zoya, she makes me forget all the bad things, all my worries. She is like a sunflower in my desert. Also, I can't say all the stuff. Like the stuff I think about her or the things I wanna do to her.

No, I am not a creep.

She's just gorgeous and I can't stop thinking about her.

I guess I have reached the stage in life where everyone and everything is complicated.

In midst all of this, I tend to forget that my goddamn exam is in a month and I haven't prepared shit.

Dad would understand, won't he?

Mummy will make him understand.
She's a great convincer. I love her.

My phoned beeped, I looked over, it's a message from my cousin brother. He is like my mentor.

And he's gonna come here because he has some work or something, but the good news is that he's gonna stay with us.

He has answers to everything. He'll tell me what to do.

But should I tell him?

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Q~ If you could read only one book for the rest of your life, which would it be?

It's just a filler.
A secret must be revealed in next chapter.
Stay tuned◕‿◕
Also, sorry for delay.
I realized that, I am the pro in procrastination.

With 10 packs of Nutella and love,
Kalyani.