OUR PURPOSE.

8. THE SECRET.

Song for this chapter~
Naina- Neha Kakkar version.
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*Zoya*

I thought the chit was a prank, until there was another. But this time it was a letter, which said “I am coming for you
~ Ali”

The same messy handwriting.

Who could possibly forget their psycho ex's handwriting?

I haven't told bhai about the first chit. Since when did I started keeping things from him. But I know if I tell him he'll get anxious and... angry. But, I don't care, I gotta tell him this.

Ali, the name itself makes my blood run cold. I hate the law for not killing him. He deserves it. Bloody assho*e.

I hate him. Or should I say I am terrified of him.
No, I am not. I stopped getting nightmares for last 4 months.

But, How can I be strong when I am not?

Before, I was reckless. I was stupid. I was a rebel. I wanted to be ‘cool’. I was naive and he knew it and he took advantage of it. He... he Fu*king raped me.

My dad's face when I told him was terror-struck and Zafi bhai looked like he would just kill him and he would have, if dad haven't stopped him.

My dad filed a cased against him. Being a politician, gave him extra power because he had connections.

But, the worst was yet to come.

Allegations.

His lawyer was brutal, he asked me filthy questions but when that as*hole was given a chance to speak.

He accused me of filthy things. A whore is what he called me. He said I asked for it. He said I deserved it. He said agreeing to be his girlfriend means agreeing to fulfill all his desires. He said he didn't do anything wrong, since we were dating. He said this is want you get for being a rebel. He said who doesn't follow religious rituals, this is their punishment.

And slowly, I started to believe it.

He was given life-time imprisonment. He should have been hanged. Why isn't he hanged?

Not many people knew about this. But there were rumors and most importantly questions.

Why did a reckless,loud girl turned into a quiet one?
Why doesn't she talk with anyone?
Why is she behaving like she is lifeless?
Why does she became alert when someone is close to her?
Why?

My dad suppressed this things since he was a powerful man.
But, what he couldn't stop was pity the people gave when I used to sit alone during recess. They looked at me like I was a puzzle, trying to solve it.

My life was changed... No, I was changed.
I started getting more anxious.
I started getting nightmares.
I wasn't confident.
I couldn't talk to anyone.
I was lost.
I was scared.
I wasn't a rebel anymore.
I was getting sick frequently.
I was scared of trusting people.
I thought it was entirely my fault.
I felt like... Like killing myself.

But, I couldn't because I was scared to do it, too.

My bhai supported me during the whole time.

But I knew he couldn't help me, because my mind was a blackhole, consuming all the good things. And someday, me too.

My dad appointed a therapist for me to help me get, wait, what they called it? "Normal".

And now here I am normal.

I am not the Zoya I used to be, but that zoya isn't completely gone, she is there. Waiting to consume me.

I was sweating so hard, my heart was pumping harder and I was, once again, Scared.

Who needs horror movies when you have this?
I thought to myself.

I took a long shower, changed and went to bhai's room.

“Zafi bhai, I need to tell you something important.” I said.

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Q~ Who is your favourite singer?

It's dark here. Writing this chapter was kind of hard. I hope you like it.
The song alone made me cry, keeping in mind that I am not a emotional person.
This song is just matchless. So here, is the youtube link.

With roses and love,
Kalyani.