It's mine and Mattias 2 month anniversary, I'm actually going over to his house right now to give him his present. Our relationship is kind of weird. We never really go out and he never posts about me on his social media because as he says "the fans will hate". Hopefully it's just that.
"Hey, is Mattia here." I ask his mom as she opens the door.
"Yeah he's up stairs with his girlfriend." She says leaving the house with Gianluca. We never told his mom that we dated so I wouldn't be surprised if she didn't know I was his girlfriend but I'm confused on who the "girlfriend" she thinks he has upstairs.
I walk up the stairs hesitantly until I reach his room door. I open the door and see that Mattias laying on his bed cuddling with some other girl. They're asleep so they don't notice that I'm here. I look around the room and see a bunch of pictures of Mattia and his supposed girlfriend. I really never went into his room either, he always just brought me downstairs.
Am I really just the side chick? Did he really not care about me?
Was everything he said a lie?
I run out of his house sobbing trying to get my car keys out of my back pocket.
Was I not enough for him?
Was I just some girl he talked to on the side?
Am I not pretty enough?
Did he only use me for sex?
I get cut off by a bright light shining in front of me. I swoop to the side quickly before the car that was there crashed into me. I shouldn't be driving while crying but I have to get far away from Mattia.
*text between Mattia and her*
Me: I really thought you were different, I thought you actually loved me, I thought I was your girlfriend but turns out I'm not I'm just the side chick I never knew I was. I still love you but I can't ever see you again. I'm gonna leave permanently, don't try to find me...
That text drained so much out of me. The situation about me leaving is that my mom found a new job and we had to move, I didn't want to leave Mattia so I talked to my dad and he said I can stay with him. But now I can't even stand to see Mattia, I just have to move with my mom and move on. I was gonna start to drive until I got a notification on my phone telling me that Mattia texted.
Mattia: can we just talk about this? Come over I really want to explain myself to you 😔
Should I even go? I think about it for a little before driving off to his house. Maybe he has a good reasoning? Maybe it's just his cousin? Well that ones off the table they were cuddling pretty close.
Stop being so gullible
I tell myself repeatedly.
*at his house*
As I knock on the door I think about what I should say and how I should say it and also repeating scenarios about how this will go.
"Come in." Mattia says looking guilty. We walk into his house and he takes me to his room. To my surprise that girl wasn't here. But the pictures still taunt me.
"You look nice." Mattia says smirking.
"I wore this because it was our 2 month anniversary, but that was just unnecessary since we never dated in the first place." I tell him looking down. He lifts my head back up and looks straight into my eyes. He had such a guilty face. He almost made me believe him...
"I never meant to hurt you," He starts off then sighs.
"Then what did you mean to do?" I ask raising my voice.
"Look, before I ever even met you I was dating this girl and she was close to the family so it was hard to break up with her, even though I wanted to so badly. Then I met you and I couldn't lose you by telling you that I had a girlfriend. But I was thinking about what you said and I broke up with her. I want you and only you. I don't care what happens with the fam I want to be with you officially." He says looking seriously into my eyes.
"I'll only be with you if you tell your parents about me and make it public, I don't want this to happen again and make me look stupid." I tell him holding out my pinky. "Pinky promise?" I ask.
"Pinky promise." He says chuckling while intertwining our pinky's and bringing me into a long passionate kiss.
