I'm your home (Yoon Jeonghan x Reader) - closed

XIV

He pulled his face away from yours, looking into your eyes.

Goodness his eyes were gorgeous. The thought of them should've melted your insides, they should've made you hold in a squeal of excitement being that close, they should've made you like him more, but why wasn't this moment fueling the feelings that should've been there?

You held a face of disappointment, trying your best to give a convincing smile. He moved his hand from your face down to intertwine his hand in yours. You scanned down his arm looking at how yours perfectly fit his, and your eyes jumped back to his face. You still had that look, hoping he couldn't see right through you. Now you felt the blood rush to your face, not from feeling flustered or embarrassed at what just happened, but at the realization that at this very moment, you figured out that you just might have feelings for someone else and you didn't even know why.

"How about we go inside?" Your voice cracked.

He grinned and nodded. He doesn't suspect a thing.

You cleared your throat, pulled your hand from his and started walking. You tried your best to keep a steady pace in front of him so that he couldn't see your face.

The entire walk back neither of you said a word. Inside the building, you started walking a little distant, "I'm gonna head to the bathroom, go ahead and go to the practice room" You waved with a smile, and he did the same in response. Once he turned around the corner, you dashed into the bathroom, into a stall and just... stood there. Collecting your thoughts. 

What on earth just happened? He kissed you.

But it's a moment that you've waited for. A moment any carat would die to have. So why didn't you feel anything?

Why was Jeonghan on your mind during the kiss? ... no comment.

You let out a deep sigh, opened the door, walked to the sink and looked at yourself in the mirror.

You stood there for a few seconds. "I have to head back"

Bracing yourself, you walked out of there calmly, walked down the hall listening to the echos of your footsteps down the halls and opened the door to the practice room. Your eyes jolted to Joshua whispering to Jeonghan like a school girl telling secrets to her friends. That gesture alone gave you the feeling of a pit forming in your stomach. Trying to ignore it, you sat down next to your bag with your back resting against the wall. 

Your mind is blank. You watched them dance, attempting to look as if you were in awe. Eventually, you put your focus to your phone again, just as you did earlier ago. 

In about 45 minutes or so:

buzz

You eyes jump to the top of your screen with a notification from the kpop news app, "Seventeen's Joshua Hong caught with an unknown young woman?"

Your eyes widen. Quickly, you move your hand up your phone to click on it, and the moment you scroll to see the picture that is revealed, your heart drops.

There it was. 

A clear picture of Joshua kissing you a few meters down from Pledis. The picture seemed to be taken at a distance.

You continued to scroll lower, more pictures of you and him. One with him holding your hand. One with you walking side by side with him with a wide smile. You did a quick scroll down to the bottom to see how many there were. You scrolled so quick that the screen zoomed down to the comment section.

'Joshua has a girlfriend?'

'She isn't that pretty'

'She doesn't deserve him!'

'Who is this b*tch?'

'I bet she only wants him for money'

There were so many. So many hate comments. You didn't know whether to cry or just ignore them. This is normal right? Normal for people to hate like this?

It was getting to you. All you could do was stare at the floor. What you didn't realize is that you had dropped your phone. 

The sound of the glass hitting the rough floor got everyone's attention. Your face was red and tears filled your eyes. All you could tell yourself was that 'this is normal' but it was just so hard to believe. Without another thought, you practically tripped over yourself trying to run out the door.

A distant call was the last thing you could hear. Though you didn't care to think about who it was, you knew anyways.

"Y/n! Y/n are you okay??"

Joshua came chasing after you and stopped in the hallway outside the practice room as he watched you turn pass the corner.

Puzzled, Jeonghan walked to your dropped phone. The time that had passed between when you saw the comments and when you ran out was enough to put your phone into automatic sleep mode. "Her phone cracked" he said with confusion. Joshua walked back in and examined the damaged device. "She couldn't be upset about that could she?" Joshua asked and looked up at Jeonghan shaking his head. Everyone was just staring. "How about what she was looking at before it cracked?" Seungcheol spoke with sarcasm. Jeonghan rolled his eyes and unlocked your phone with ease. "Her password is still the same from years ago" He mumbled. He scrolls and sees all the comments. As he continued he eventually found the pictures that were taken outside. 

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I'm sorry for not posting in like a month lol. I got animal crossing and became obsessed and then online school became a poopy thing hehe. anyways, I'll try to update a little more often~! sorry this one was a little short... I kinda don't know where this story is going anymore lololol